Love: So Far From An Abandoned Thought

Chapter 4

JJ POV

Time is an interesting thing. The most noticeable thing about time is that it represents change. Five years ago, thousands of strangers had no clue who we were. Two years ago we were just kids with little sense of what we were doing. A year ago I met the love of my life, Leo. An hour ago, I received a strange text from his best friend, which I shrugged off easily. Thirty minutes ago, I wasn't a complete mess. Now, as I stare into the mirror and look at my mascara running down my blotchy red cheeks, my puffy eyes, my wet face from crying my eyes out, I think not so much.
"JJ? Please come out of that damn bathroom so you can tell me what the freaking problem is!" I heard. May has been trying to coax me out for what seems like forever.

Forty five minutes ago.

After Crown the Empire's set, we exchanged pleasantries with the band, and Jade decided to hang out with Brent until the signing. So me and Mark went back to the rv, where we found May chilling with a Cup Noodle. So Mark and I shared about our adventures at the set, where Mark proceeded to tell May about Benn's shenanigans onstage.
"Ooh, I bet JJ was excited to see that," May said, winking at me.
"Pssssh, not even. I mean yes, Benn is attractive, but I have my Leo," I stated confidently.
Both May and Mark rolled their eyes at me. They were never really fond of Leo. I think it's mainly because they can't get over his obsessive drinking issue, or maybe it's how he looks, or how he talks. I never really understood.
At that very moment I receive a text from my other best friend, Liane. She's one of those downtown coffee shop performers, who spends her days on the internet blogging and playing with her dogs, Scrappy and Cocoa. The text says,"Please tell me you broke it off with that lowlife scumbag already." What the hell does she mean, referring to Leo like that? I replied to her, asking for an explanation. All I got in reply was a picture. The worst picture I will ever see in my life. There's my amazing boyfriend at a party............with his lips locked to another girl.
My whole life came crashing down on me. I ran to the tiny bathroom in our rv and just immediately began bawling. I cried for myself, I cried for all the memories, I cried for all the time now wasted, I even cried for the asshole I loved. I tried to get everything out, really let those emotions loose. I locked myself in there for a really long time, just trying to make sense of everything that's happened. My love, my Leo, has cheated on me, and ultimately broke my trust, forever. But why? Why, why why why why..........
As I'm lost in all my thoughts, trying to justify why he'd do this, I hear May screaming at the door.
"JJ? Please come out of that damn bathroom so you can tell me what the freaking problem is!"
I opened the door, threw my phone at her, then slammed the door shut again, sobbing once more. All I heard May say was, "Oh, honey."
As I hear May explain to Mark what happened through the door, I sit on the floor drowning myself in emotions of confusion, sorrow, and most of all, heartbreak.