when you explained to me jupiter - tsukiyama

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He cried himself to sleep again.

The message he received last night shattered him mercilessly and he just wanted it all to end at once, but it seemed like everything in the universe was conspiring against the number 12.

Usually, when he was frustrated, he used to count the stars he had on the bedroom ceiling, something that Tsukishima always liked to observe at sleepovers.

The stars also reminded him of the galaxy. None of them was a big fan of astronomy, but Tsukishima liked to talk about the name of the planets. Jupiter, in particular, was a sensitive topic.

Fuck Jupiter. Fuck Tsukishima. Tadashi didn't need planets or his moon if it wouldn't help him to recover.

It felt weird to get up of the bed and go to school, but he did it anyways. Is not like being heartbroken was a good excuse for his parents and teachers.

He met Tsukishima at their usual spot, and after a single "Hello", he didn't said nothing.

He observed Tsukishima in the corner of his eye, noticing a brief smile dancing on his lips.

"He's so beautiful. I want to kiss him so bad." Was the only thing that he could think, but he was also wondering if Tsukki was thinking about his crush, that he would confess today, making the olive-haired boy felt completely helpless.

The day was slow again. Tsukishima did not confess at any of the breaks between classes, and called him to eat together at the lunchtime, so it means that he was probably thinking of confess after school is over.

They heard the ring of the bell and Tsukishima wanted to eat behind the gym, where very few people went to, which now was empty. His friend didn't said a word, just followed the blonde.

As requested, Tadashi did not bring his lunch, and he was able to notice Tsukishima trying to contain a wide smile when the brunette said that. Tsukishima then handed over the lunch box, showing a simple tonkatsu with rice and vegetables, but so well placed that it looked fancy. Tsukishima's lunches were well organized, but the way every high school lunch should be. Today it seemed more special. Maybe he was in a good mood when he did it.

Yamaguchi smiled slightly, closing the lunchbox he received politely and looking at Tsukishima

"I'm not hungry now, Tsukki. I'm going to try to eat after training."

"Ah, all right. I ... I have something to give you. Yesterday's letter. "

The love letter he would deliver to your crush later? Was he really asking Tadashi to read?

"Tsukki, I think whoever should read this is the person you like, not me." He frowned in anguish. "Do you want me to judge the content too? Sorry, but this-"

"Just read it. "

"Tsukki, I-"

"Read it."

Maybe he should get rid of his misery right away. But he doesn't know how he would look at his best friend's face later, if that friendship would last after so much torture.

Hesitantly, he opened the simple envelope, taking a long text out of it. Would he read so much? Maybe he should just pretend to read, then apologize to Tsukishima, then disappear forever and-

Dear Tadashi,

Oh.

You helped me yesterday, but I still don't know how to start this. First of all, I wanted to apologize for this, but I was telling the truth yesterday, when I said I couldn't take my feelings anymore, or that I would reduce my ego for you. You are special like that.