Glory

II

Deku's POV:

Present Mic was explaining his lecture per usual, some people were listening while others did not, however, I found myself oddly zoning out, muting Present Mic's voice, and focusing on the pictures my mind projected for me. I usually never zone out in any of my classes, for I was no such student. As I scribbled circles onto my notebook absent-mindedly, I thought about the not-so-many ways I can rebuild my broken friendship.

Some may call me petty, others may call me delusional, but I am going to be honest with you, I am both and more. See the reason I want to get closer to Kaccchan is not that I was to be like how we used to be in the past, but rather because I admire him and look up to him. He stood up to many bullies in the past even if he was outnumbered. He is so brave and strong that he can put aside his pain and fear and go past all that to win. To call something like this a delusion is a delusion in itself.

Kacchan and I both adored All might as kids, and I am still sure he looks up to him even now, so when he says he wants to surpass All Might, it is not that he thinks All might is not all that much that he cannot be surpassed, but rather that he is all great that Kacchan pushes himself harder and harder and burdens himself to try and become the next hero that will be the best at everything.

I heard the faint sound of the ringing bell, but I did not bother looking up, I was still scribbling on my notebook and still in my own headspace to notice my exterior surroundings. A few murmurs and cheers were faintly heard, but my hand still held the pen that went in a circular motion and my head still blocked out the noise.

Then it was silent again, not a still silent but a relaxing silent. I felt myself melt into the noiseless room, my head slowly clearing out and my eyes, half-lidded, staring intently at the probably hundreds of circles I drew in the one spot my hand did not move.

A little nudge to the shoulder brought me back to reality as I looked up to the whole class's eyes directed towards me putting me in a difficult spot. Mineta, the tiny bundle of grape sitting behind me, chuckled as I let a small yet visibly confused "huh?" that echoed through the room, after poking me out of my headspace. I looked to the front where Iida and Yaorozo were standing in front of the now clean chalkboard.

"We are planning a new year's party." Iida looked at me and stated the matter and hand. "We were dividing the workload and you got cleaning duty before and after with me, Mineta and Kirishima. Are you fine with that?" He asked but did not want a response only an approval. "yes... sure!" I replied with a smile trying to seem more interested in the party when all I clearly need is to train rather than waste my time. However, I also do not wish to be the party pooper of the class so I will just go with it for now.

"ok so that means the-" Iida was restating what was decided, from the ones in charge of the music to the ones in charge of food, he listed it all again and confirmed that the plan was approved by the teachers as long as everything gets back to what it was by noon of the next day. I gave no attention to that whatsoever, all I could think about now was how blue the sky was yesterday and how grey it is today.

I let myself get lost in whatever my eyes landed on for the rest of the day, and for a day, I went from a bright student to a student that does spaces out at every given chance. I am pretty sure the teachers noticed and so did the rest of the class, hopefully, none will be worried though. I really do not need another person that would get worried about me, especially since my mom worries way too much.

The end of the day came earlier than I anticipated and by the time the last bell rang my head was still resting on my stretched-out hand.

"Deku?" A soft tender voice called out to me from my side. I sat up straight looking at the brown-haired girl with worries swimming around inside her dark brown orbs. "Are you ok? you looked lost in thought all day and did not listen to any of today's lectures."

I smiled in her direction as I stood up starting to pack my stuff. "It is nothing Uraraka," I replied as I placed my notebook inside my yellow backpack. "it is just that I have a lot on my mind lately that I can't seem to focus much." I zipped up the bag and swung it onto my shoulder. "Hopefully I will be better by tomorrow! I just have to figure something important out ok?" I gave her a wide smile and slowly her worries seem to disperse from her eyes and her shoulders seemed less tense. "so don't worry too much about me!"

I stepped aside from my desk and walked alongside her back to the dorms heading straight to my room making no-to-little conversations with the people I passed on the way.

It has been a long time since I was just able to zone out, out of the contents of the class, and think of what is happening in my head. When I stopped to think about everything going on in my messy mind I realized there are much more things to think about and look over than I like to admit but all I wanted to do was go into numb slumber and just push everything aside for a moment.

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My eyes slowly opened to the dark empty room, the sun was already set and the clock read 2:53 am. By now everyone would be asleep and I would be the only one awake. The problem is I could not sleep anymore no matter how hard I tried to push myself back to sleep it just would not work. After more than 10 minutes of failing to fall back to sleep, I got up.

I wore UA's winter sports outfit, now that it is getting cold, with my bright red shoes, and head out to the outside. I assumed a run would either get my thoughts off of my mind or at least help me find a solution to the problems I am facing. So that is what I did.

I ran, and ran, and ran, and ran but with no use.

I still did not figure out how to get closer to Kacchan nor how to solve any other issue. I took deep breaths as I stopped leaning my back against a tree to catch my breath. I looked at the digital watch I had wrapped tightly around my right hand, that now read 4:36 am, sighing I let my arm fall dead beside me as I slid down to the ground softly sitting with my knees close to my chest. A few minutes passed and my breath was back to normal and all I could think was how long these few days were going to be. 

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