Chapter 6
I'm currently driving my car, of course para ihatid si Nana sa airport. She insisted a mag byabyahe na lang sya through buses and jeepneys but I won't allow that.
" Hija sigurado ka ba na magiging okay ka lang mag isa? "
She asked for I guess a hundredth time or million already.
" Nana I'm not the little girl you used to know. Look at me I'm grown up na, so stop worrying about me and just enjoy your vacation okay? "
I assured her.
" Nag aalala kasi ako sayong bata ka. Basta h'wag ka masyado mag iinom ha at lagi mong ilolock ang pinto at mga bintana, binilin kita kanina sa guard tapos basta kapag may kailangan ka tumawag ka lang sakin na saiyo pa naman yung number-"
I cut her. I smiled and park my car. She's so thoughtful I am so lucky to have her beside me.
" Nana, nay. Wag na kayo masyado ma stress sakin. Promise mag iingat ako. "
I raised my right hand for some effects.
" Huwag ka na masyado iiyak tuwing gabi ha? Kapag hindi ka makatulog uminom ka ng gatas. Huwag mo na masyado alalahanin yung mga nakaraan ha. Tandaan mo andito lagi si Nanay mo para sayo. Hindi ka nag iisa. "
She said already crying. Alam ko naman na nakikita nya yung mga dramatic nights ko pero it's the first time na payuhan nya ako at iopen up yung ganitong topic. I just can't help it so I hugged her.
" Of course Nanay I am strong and I always have you by my side kaya wag mo ko iiwan ha? Two weeks hanggang one month ka lang dun. Baka mabaliw na ako kapag nawala yung nag iisa kong kakampi. I love you. "
I kiss her sa cheeks and hug her tighter.
" At si Lorraine wag mo masyado bwisitin baka gabutan ka non walang tutulong sayo. "
She said laughing.
" Of course Nay, I would never stoop down her level. My nails is too innocent to be murdered. "
I said smiling and wiping my tears.
" Nay let's go na, baka maiwan ka na ng airplane. Don't forget to bring some broas and otaps po ha. And call me agad if you're there na, okay Nay? "
" Yes, Granny. "
She said mocking me.
" I hate you Nay, take care okay? I love you."
With that I hug her and wave at her.
I will miss my Nanay for sure.
Right after I step at the door of my house, agony attacked me. I feel so alone, so empty.
Nilock ko ang pinto and went straight to my room, with a glass of champagne in my hands.
I promised my Nana that I'll not drink if she's not around, but promises are meant to be broken naman di ba?
" This life is a whole shit. " I said while taking my shoes off.
" I've been a fool a long time ago and I will never let anybody make me look so naïve again. I cried and that's enough. I fall and now I'll rise again. Forgive but I can't forget. "
And with that I close my eyes and sleep.
