3 A.M. Thoughts

My D 'N' A pt.2

You begin to become enraged, overthinking about the people that did you wrong at such a young age.

"What did I do to deserve that bullshit from them?" You wish you could go back in time and cut them.

You suddenly feel guilty of wishing such a thing upon them, feeling like a villain, a terrible human being for such a thought. You try to think of something else, like something you bought

But no, your brain had to go 

Your heart begins to ache from heartbreak, all the things they did, all the love they decided to take and left you in the dust to sit there, fall apart and cry a lake

You start to feel lonely rush over, knowing no one would ever love you for what you were, what you've done, who you hurt

You thought about people you tried to help but made things worse for them, it was difficult to see them in the state they were in and you tried to put them at a 10, but failed and made them upset again

You just wanted to be there for them, but then remember they were never there for you, but you don't care, after all, their happiness was most important to you

Out of nowhere, creatures and shadows appear, they come closer to you, till they are very near

They whisper little truths and repeat the little lies you've told, you start to feel weak as you body begins to fold

You begin to feel hands all over your body, pulling you in every which way, they just started and you already want to end the day

You suddenly feel eyes on you all around, you struggle and fight while your wrists are bound

They continue to touch you where you don't want them to, but they don't care, they do what they wanna do

You cry until you don't, you once begged them to stop but you know they won't

When they finish, you feel violated, but there was nothing you could do about it, that's just how they decided to play it

Memories of being touched by people you knew haunted you dearly, you could cry, but didn't dare, for you saw it as a sign a weakness, severely 

You remember someone who was supposed to protect you, but instead, they always got drunk and left, like they always do

They abandoned you, making you think it was your fault, but it wasn't since it was their choice and they're the adult 

You were supposed to be his little girl, now you have daddy issues, since you're not as important, which makes your toes curl

People surround you, family and friends, but it's difficult to speak since you hardly know any of them

You finally decide to get back to your homework but become overwhelmed, you crash and it's over...

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Heys guys, I hope y'all are doin oki, I do t really have much to say for this one to be honest, but... yea! 

Love ya, my black roses 🖤🌹