Stuff to know me/tags/me being dumb

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THANK YOU ALL FRIENDS FOR 152 FOLLOWERS!!!!!

Like said in the caption BIG WOAH

But in all seriousness thank you all so much.

I never thought anyone would find my profile heck follow it. 

I'm still a kid (a minor) and this is super surreal and something my brain couldn't even make a dream because I had a feeling it would never happen. And I thought that at 10 followers

I always loved writing little stories in my mind but had nowhere to put those stories besides a google doc but I never tried. It is why luckily no one will ever see them.

When I found Wattpad I only came to read.... yeah so I came to read other people's stories and had loved most of them. Some having those dumb cliches but overall good books. I would read them after school at a journalling club no one paid attention to.

Thats around the time I was getting tired of reading cliches written by other people and decided to myself if I hated them so much I should write my own. 

Life was pretty sad and pathetic because I focused most of my time waiting for my now popular best friend to talk to me again. But I made one friend and she's really nice and I went to her house a while ago.

Then Covid knocked down the door and made every school shut down and go online.

I was bored out of my damn mind and decided to look for the songs my sister used to listen to. She moved out and wasn't talking to my family (still isn't but you know whatever) and I missed her so one Spotify account later I found Hamilton.

Hamilton was and still is my 1# musical and I fell in love. I was cautious of getting into the fandom because I had a bad experience with another fandom from my school. But while looking in at the rabbit hole I was grabbed by something and BOOM I was locked in.

Not a bad thing either actually one of the best things thats ever happened to me

After looking through certain historical letters from a certain person to another person during the 1700s I made a few now cringy chapters of my first book.

You may have found me that way and for that I'm sorry-

After updating it a lot and reading more of other people's stories I sold my soul to the Hamilton fandom and their writers

They gave me in return some followers and readers on my book.

Nothing too much but I was very happy and content with it. And I still am :)

The feeling of people reading my stuff was anxiety in dosing but over time it gave me a giddy feeling of happiness.

Then more and more followers came.

It was kinda confusing but I paid really no mind to it and kept updating my book

Over time I decided to take a step back so I don't burn myself out of the fandom. I stopped updating my book as much with my step back. 

That was a few months ago and I apologize for not really bring this up sooner if you were waiting for me to update my main book

During this step back I was able to watch some musicals.

Like Dear Evan Hansen, Heathers, Be More Chill, and 21 Chump Street.

And if you look at my reading lists you can tell I favor one over the rest but we will get into that later

I felt bad for taking such a big step back but it was for the best. 

Then I made Cancel Ham Sandwiches™ and it felt like I found my purpose on Wattpad

(You can join if you would like just go to my profile and click the story with the name)

It was so random and so out of place for me. I had never started a cult before and it was funny seeing how people reacted.

I even made more friends like my Captian :)

Without CHS™ I don't think I would have the confidence to say hi to any of the people who are now members. 

I am really happy right now for so many reasons but mostly I keep wanting to just say thank you a billion times.

I was in really dark times through 2020 and still now in 2021 but you guys motive me forward and keep me even happier to write because I know at least one of you guys would read it and that's enough. I promised myself I wouldn't make it to today and I'm not talking about 150+ followers. But thanks to the help of you guys I am making a promise to myself and you guys I'll stay on this water-covered ball of dirt at least till pride month. But based on how my days seem to get better every day I will go longer past that.

You guys mean the whole fricking world to me and I have no words to describe the feelings I feel right now and since the beginning of my writing days

But the thing is uh...

I have no idea how to show you guys how grateful I am-

I could publish a BMC one-shot book that already has 4-9 fully complete chapters but eh I don't know

So please give me ideas of how to thank you guys

I am thinking of showing you guys some art I haven't made yet as a thank you but I have no idea what to draw

So yeah

You guys are all my friends and if you hate the "friend" title then that's fine too

Just now that if you EVER need anything from me or just want to be closer to me or just want to talk I am always available

It might take a while for me to get to you but I promise I will get to you.

I normally get on my computer before school and then after school, I take a 3-hour break to watch youtube on my big TV in my living room then get back on

You are all amazing people and it's amazing to know that I have those kinds of people who know me either from my books, in real life (somehow) or you just followed me because one of your friends was following me I love every single one of you. Platonically of course

Anyways Ima stop typing and actually post this so you guys can see this and plus words suck and the only reason you can understand this is that my computer helps autocorrect

I love you guys!

your slightly crying writer today and always,

-emily💛