Behind The Silhouette

십•팔.

I stood still under the beaming sunlight. I had no other thoughts but to ponder upon my horrible self. I didn't know what I could do. Woobin's in a coma state, Mino's doing fine. How do I feel? Terribly not fine at all. I stared at the train tracks right in front of me. Maybe if I'm gone, will things get better? Maybe I could donate my organs to Woobin, in case he needs them or in case it didn't get crushed by the train. I went clueless and I was dazed. Suicide isn't a good option. It never has. I walked towards the tracks. With an heavy heart, I stand right above on it, silently hoping that the train wouldn't come right away to steal my life in a full, tragic speed.

I couldn't bear to risk my life for this. In fact, I don't want to die at all. Nonchalantly I stood my head up and brace myself. Is it my time to die? Do I hear the grim reaper calling my name? I could sense that it's time. I held up my hands and clentched my fingers side by side while shutting my eyes in nervousness.

Yes, it's time. My time to end my life. I could feel the train tracks began to shake. I stuttered and got myself a little panic. This clearly shows that a train is going on full speed along my way. I could hear the hustle and bustle train sounds heading against my way.

"Okay, this is it. It's great to live, I had always enjoy living, but. I can't stay any longer. It's now the time... Mother, I'm coming to see you. Please wait for me, I'm coming to see you." I felt my tears streaming down my cheeks. I shivered and stayed still as the train about to slide itself and crushed over me when a shocking moment I got pulled out away from the train tracks.

"Jinwoo! What the hell you're thinking?! What on earth that you wanted to kill yourself?!" I cried uncontrollably.

Mino, why would you rescued me? I should've get killed.