Behind The Silhouette

십•구.

(Author's note: I'm not this kind of writer, but, if you guys want to be a total emo- nah, just joking. if you want to really feel the sadness here, Eyes Nose Lips by Lydia Paek. I'm sure this will give you some sad vibes so yeah have fun.)

Yes, Mino saved my life. He did. And he's safe. Sadly I couldn't keep my promise that I made with my mother a week before. The urge of committing suicide that I am having is too unbearable. The dying urge of wanting to feel death. Why couldn't I be on my death bed already? Why on earth am I saved?

Mino had gotten a job at YG, thus he had left for work. After this happened, he had never mentioned a word to me regarding about my failed suicide. I feel quite bad actually. I have always wanted to say 'thanks', but when I was about to mention it, he'll nod and shut me up by saying, "it's fine. no biggie" and he'll change our conversation to another subject and mumble about something else. I wasn't quite happy about this incident and so does he. Maybe I should just check up on Woobin instead of wasting my time to kill myself. So apparently, I dialled the hospital number and managed to get through him.

"Hi?" His voice was heard at the other line.

"Hi," I replied.

"You okay now?" I mumbled with sympathy.

"Yeah," I could hear him groaned at the end.

"My head hurts a little, I guess I'm alright." I smiled in relief. Thank God.

"Want me to go over?" I asked.

-"Nah, it's alright. I'm packin' my stuffs and my parents are coming here to get me." His voice was crooked and dry. My smile had turned into a frown. I wasn't sure what am I feeling but I knew I am not happy about him going away.

"Time is ticking, Jinwoo. It looks like I have to go soon and catch my flight. I'll continue my treatment in L.A."

"So, I guess this is a goodbye?" I could feel my tears flooding up my eyes. I couldn't even see clearly with my uncontrollable tears covering upon them.

"I guess, this is it. It is a pleasure meeting you, Jinwoo." He mumbled softly.

"-I would always love you, as a friend of course." He let out a soft chuckle and continue with a slight sniff.

"Live happily ever after with your love ones, especially Mino. Take care." He sniffed lightly as he speaks. "Last long, okay? I hope you'll forget me in no time soon. That's all I could say, so long, my friend."

"Wait Woobin. I.. I love you t-" As I was about to continue, Woobin hung up. That's it. It's the end. I didn't even manage to tell him that I love him, even though pretty much as a friend.

"Good bye, Woobin. I'll miss you. I would really do. Hope you'll remember me and treasure our short moments that we spent together all this while.
Love you."