Falling down (Katie Fitch x fem oc)

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After my mental break down I decided to go see effy..she was the only one who could make me feel better right now. I was sure Katie was mad at me and needed her space.

I rang the door bell but the door was unlocked so I just walked in. "Effy..eff you home?" She was silent but I followed the slight sound coming from her moms room. She was sitting on the bed with cut up paper everywhere looking shit. "Effy what the fuck?" I asked concerned. She just laughed and smiled at me. I immediately knew effy was having a break..

"Found my porn stash," she chuckled throwing a few paper up in the air. "Eff this isn't good..you are going down the drain," I said grabbing her hand. She moved it away quickly and then stared at me deeply like she always did, "you have to accept." "Accept what?" I said before hearing the door click and Freddie call out for effy. "In here freds," I said and he made his way up the stairs just as effy continued shuffling through the paper. "The end," effy said. "What fucking end?" I asked confused as hell. Effy froze and looked up at me slowly, "mine. Lila." I then turned to freddie who looked genuinely scared.

I got up pushing Freddie out the door and closing it behind us so effy wouldn't hear. "Freddie she needs help." "What do you mean help? I can take care of her don't worry," he said almost pushing off the idea. "No like actual help. A therapist maybe? She's been dealing with this for a while now it's just only starting to show," I said folding my arms and taking a deep breath.

"No. They won't be able to help her and I won't let her...I can do it Lila I've got it," Freddie said gulping nervously. "They can help her more than any of us could. I know you love her freds maybe even more than I do and as much as you do I want to be able to help her but we both know we can't take this burden on ourselves," I said putting my hand on his arm as a comfort. Freddie slightly moved telling me he disagreed, "I don't give a fuck about burdens I'm not gonna let this happen again," Freddie said shrugging and going back into the room to help effy. "Freddie wait...," I tried to stop him but he had his mind made up. "Fucking hell," I said before walking down the stairs.

I went and lit a cigarette outside and looked through my phone for someone to call. What the fuck could I do? Effy needs help and Freddie thinks he could do it by himself..this will turn out bad and I know it. I looked down and read all the contacts out to myself, effy, Emily, naomi, panda, Thomas, cook, Katie... "Katie.."I said out loud to myself. Saying her name always left me with tingles.

I thought for a while blowing the cigarette smoke out into the cold Bristol air. I wanted nothing more than Katie to comfort me because my bestfriend is heavily depressed and needs help but I can't help her all that much because I have my own shit to deal with and it's gonna be hard...really fucking hard. I ended up dialing Katie's number whilst tears were falling down my face for effy. "Hello?" She answered clearly still annoyed with me. I just stood silently and sniffled. "Li are you alright? I can hear you crying," she said now worried.

"Effy isn't okay. She's getting worse and worse everyday. She needs help..she really does but I can't help her. Neither can Freddie but he's so fixated on doing it and I just know something bad will fucking happen. Katie tell me what to do please," I said now basically full on crying. "Where are you I'm on my way," she said sternly. "A bit from effys house," I said looking around my surroundings. "Okay I'm coming don't worry," she said before quickly hanging up the phone. I sat there waiting untill my cigarette was to the filter.

I threw it across the street and kicked the pavement with my shoe. I then saw a dark purplish red haired girl coming closer to me. "Katie?" I asked out loud. She came faster basically running into my arms to hug me, "I'm so sorry." I hugged her back wanting nothing more than to be in her arms. We ended up walking to a nearby bench where I laid my head on her shoulder. She held my hand and waited untill I was ready to talk.

"Katie.."I said softly my voice a bit cracked from crying. "Yeah?" She said looking towards me. "What can I do?" I asked very cluelessly. "Honestly I don't know. But if effy needs help I know you know the right decision to make because you love her..and I don't like seeing you hurt so I'll stand by whatever you do.."Katie said smiling down at me. "Always?" "Always and forever. Unless you do something stupid to yourself or me," she said eyeing me. Which made me laugh because I don't think I'd ever do something to her..not sure about myself though. "Of course not," I said smiling back and then leaning in to kiss her soft lips. "I love you Katie." "I love you more," she said smiling and cuddling with me tightly. "I think I'm gonna call them..Freddie may hate me but she needs it," I said sighing. "You and Freddie and good friends he'll forgive you eventually. Also why is he so fixated on helping her himself..he know he won't be able to do that on his own,  he can barely handle regular effy," Katie chuckled. "I'm not sure...he kept saying he won't let this happen again? I'm not sure what he means...maybe he had this situation before in his life," I shrugged really curious now. "Oh..didn't his mom die or something? I believe Cook said she was in the loony bin,"Katie said. "Oh...that's what it is. His mom commuted Suicide that's why...aww poor freds," I said frowning. "We're all a bunch of fucked up kids," Katie said sighing. "Yeah.."