Unexpected

Life goes on

"Ms Kerr? " a small middle aged lady spoke grabbing my attention
"Yes ?" I asked wiping my tears away, i was still sitting in the hospital waiting room,
"Im Angela Gibson and im your social worker , im sorry to hear about you mother" she introduced herself i nodded letting her know she has my attention,
"Th-ank you" i mumbled ,
"I understand you dont have any family but you mother came to talk to me when she found out about the illness , and told me that she has a friend here in doncaster that is willing to let you stay with them for as long as you like," my mother never once mentioned to me about thing like this , i never really knew my mother was terminally ill ,
" a family friend? " i spoke up , my mother never really had time for friends she wasnt one for going out she was always busy with her work
"Yes , did you mother not tell you?" Angela asked me
I just shook my head
"Says here her name is johannah deakin ? Any way tonight you will be going home and staying there , giving you time to say goodbye to your childhood home and pack your things , you have been given a week and then you will need to be out of the house love , im so sorry springing this all on you " she said apologising again,
I nooded ,
Ive lost everything , and i have to move out to Live with some one ive never even met
"Thank you could you take me home please?"
She nodded and showed me towards her car
The journey was silent , i couldnt get my hea round everything , i wish today never happened , i just wish my mum didnt have to leave me , but now shes in no pain , in at rest
Angela pulled up at my house i unbuckled my seat belt but just sat in the seat for little while longer
"Um thank you, angela , would you like to come in and ill make you some tea? " i offered trying to be nice but also hoping she said no, i could do with being alone , she simply shook her head no
"Thank you dear but ill let you be alone , but i will be over tomorrow to discuss some things love , bye love," I nodded and got up out of the car i waved her off
Throwing the door open and then slamming it shut, i just collapsed on the floor , memories from today running through my head, wanting them to go away , wanting to wake up and it to all be a dream

I awoke to the sound of the door bell , my eyes slowly opened , to the sight of the light shining through the curtains, i drag my self out of my bed , and shuffeled all the way to the front door

"angela?" i answered welcoming her in , to be honest i dont even know what time of the day it is "Alright love im sorry if i woke you , " she apologised to me , i shook my head "No no dont be silly i should be up i need to start packing " my face dropped remembering yesterday
"Well thats what im here to talk about Mia , i understand you mother was very successful in what she done for a living , lets take a seat" i nodded showing her the way to the kitchen , "tea?" I asked putting water in the kettle
"Yes please "
I handed her the cup of tea and sat down with her ,
"So, as i said you mum was very successful, and made quite alot of money , and as you have no other family , she has left all of it to you , " my eyes went wide my mother left me all the money , "this also includes the house , but as you are not eighteen you can not stay in it , you can either sell it and get the money for that , or rent it out until you are ready to move in, "
"Wow , emm thats a big decision to make , when does it need to made ? " there was no way i could give them my answer any time soon,
" there is no rush , you have two months , but as i said you have to be out of the house by next week," i nodded in rekgonison
" well i will think about it , "
"No rush dear, and did you know what your mother did for her work?" Coming to think of it i didnt really , it just didnt seem to bother me , i knew she was a busy woman , i shook my head in reply
"Well dear she had a job waiting for you , when ever you were looking for a job ,"
I nodded
This was a lot to take in , alot

After Angela left , i didn't know what to do with my self , i grabbed a few boxes and started packing up some bit and bobs from my room, and putting the full boxes into the spare room,
I then moved onto my mothers room, i didnt know what to touch an what not to ,
I wanted my mothers jewellery i knew that much i packed that along with a few items of clothing i seen her in the most and a few teddies that belonged to her
I couldnt do anymore , it felt wrong going through her room , with out her permission , i just dont like it ,
Today wasnt any better than yesterday, i couldnt get over the fact that my mothers gone , someone thats been there for me since the day i was born , hugged me when i cried , took care of me when i was ill, and someone i told all my secrets to , tears just wouldnt stop falling , My mother always said , : life goes on,
"When i do pass , i dont want no tears , i want smiles , i want yo to live you life "
And that is what i intend to do