Playing a game

Unspoken words

- Yes you are right this is definitely not a good time, I just went back and you are the last person that I want to talk right now. - I told without looking him

- Yeah I know that Amy, you have been ignoring me for the last four days, I send you texts, I tried to call you several times, I knock on your door ...

- That means that I don't want to talk to you Lando why don't you get it ?

- Come on Amy give me a list 10 minutes...

- No Lando I can't do this right now...

- Does this mean that we're not going to be friends anymore? because of a kiss?

- How can you say something like that lando? It's not fair, I mean, everything was normal we are just regular friends and then I just got knowledge that you have feelings for me and then I got knowledge that I have feelings for you, and then I thought, well, maybe we should try something, so I ask you to go to the party with me and then a kiss between us happens and then I thought, well, I guess I was right, it was supposed to be, and everything was just fine until I got outside and saw you kissing a another girl in your car

- Wait wait, what do you mean with, I have feelings for you ? When did you hear that? 

- I heard you and Carlos talking the other night about your feelings for me and then I talked to Carlos and he confirmed it

- Was you spying on us?

- No !! Of course not, I was passing through when I heard the conversation, so I went to talk to Carlos and he confirmed.

- So you went to talk to Carlos instead of me? if I am the one with the feelings?

- Because it's little bit embarrassing Lando, how am I supposed to start a conversation with "hey Lando, is it true that you have feelings for me?"

- Well, maybe not like that but you should have talked to me first

- OK let's not go back to the past, do you have it or not?

- What ? feelings? like romantic feelings? 

- Yes Lando, what I heard you saying to Carlos the other night, is it true?

- I don't know ....

- Oh you don't know, great, I think we're done here Lando, honestly I don't wanna talk about it anymore, I'm just done with the subject, I don't even want to know why were you kissing that other girl ... 

The room was quiet for a moment, a heavy silence, I refused to look at Lando, I could feel his eyes on me, I already felt a tear trying to escape but I was being strong in holding it, he was not sure about his feelings for me, that was it , so the kiss meant nothing to him, he was just testing a theory.

- Do you wanna start over like going out on a date? - he said quietly, almost too low to hear

That moment I just looked at him truly surprised, I mean, really ? Was he sorry for me? Was that the reason for ask me on a date? Maybe for him to feel better about all of this?

- No, I don't wanna go out with you, I don't wanna have feelings for you I don't wanna think about you please let me work close the door on your way out. - I practically shouted the words, turned around and pretended to read some document, trying at any cost not to let him notice the tear that broke off and ran down my face

He stayed where he was for a while, I didn't turn around to face him but I could feel him looking at me, I thought he was going to say something else, but he didn't, he did exactly what I told him to do, he walked out of the office and closed the door behind him