A Series of Unfathomable Feelings

Hyggelig

Hyggelig (Danish) is a feeling of friendship, warmth, peace and contentment in a comfortable and cosy atmosphere.

You scrapped your knees when you feel on the pavement still screaming Steve's name, but he was long gone. Wanda found you and wrapped her arms around your shoulders, shushing you the best she could before you passed out on the sofa. You were too exhausted to think, but it was the middle of the week and you had to go to work. Wanda stayed with you. The next day, she made sure you ate something before you went to work.

When you came home you tried to call Bucky or Dot, but they didn't even know that you and Steve had a fight.

"Thanks for letting me stay, man," Steve said as Sam, his work buddy, showed him the spare room.

"No worries. I know the feeling." He patted Steve's back and gave him a sympathetic smile. "You can stay as long as you like."

A few days after the incident in the living room Steve came home. You were in your room trying to keep your mind busy when you heard the door open. You called his name and ran to the living room.

"I left you enough money for two months, but you should look for new roommate." He put an envelope on the table. "I took my name off the lease," he said, eyes fixed on the envelope.

"What? No, you can't do that," you pleaded as you approached him. "Steve, wait! I didn't-"

"You did," he cut you off and lifted his head to look at you. There was so much anger and pain in his eyes that you took a step back. "I'm an idiot," he said through a scoff. "I thought you and I-" He didn't finish his sentence.

"No, please! Listen to me." You tried to hold his arm, but he pulled it out of your reach.

"Bucky and Dot will stop by tomorrow to take what's in my room. You can throw whatever's left." He entered his bedroom to take a bag and other things he needed for work.

"Please-" You grabbed hold of his strong arm, and now that you had your fingers around it you were not going to let go. "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. If you could just listen to me." You felt the bulge of his bicep flex as you kissed the exposed skin.

"I can't look at you." He closed his eyes and tried to calm his raging heart. "It's over. It's what you wanted, uh?"

He took his bag and freed himself from your grip before he left his keys on the kitchen table and left without turning back.

You sank to the floor, crying in silence. In the middle of the night, you dragged yourself to his bed and hugged the pillow that still smelled like him. The next day, Bucky and Dot came to take Steve's belongings. You couldn't face them so you asked Peggy to open the door while you spent the day with Wanda.

You agreed to spend the night at her place. When you came home the next day, Steve's room was completely empty.

The last thing you wanted was a new roommate, but you couldn't afford the rent alone. A month or so later, you decided to put an ad. A lot of people visited the apartment.

"You found your new roommate?" Wanda asked as she sat next to you on your sofa.

"Almost. I reduced the list to these two." You showed her the papers of the two women you had picked. "Darcy made me laugh, but Natasha is more financially stable."

You decided to call Natasha, the beautiful red haired woman took Steve's room. It was hard to see someone else walk around the apartment, but you dealt with it. Natasha was pretty secretive, but she was also a very caring person. You knew she was in a relationship with a man named Clint, he looked like a bored murderer.