But I cant have you.

1/ Todays gonna be a good day

A/N: Ok so like the way the fanfics put together like the song lyrics in the beginning and the chap name being a sentence in the chapter I took inspo from a Endgame by chatnoirsbitch

"And nothing hurts anymore I feel kinda freee"

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Marinette
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"You wanna know why i broke up with Luka?"

"It's not because i don't like him, he's amazing. It's because there's something i can't tell him, do you know why i'm drawing a line on Adrien? Because it will be the same with him. I have secrets I lie all the time. To my friends to my parents to everyone. The worst part is I can't do anything about it."

I held my face in my hands. I can't handle this, I can't handle lying to everybody. I needed to tell somebody.

Alya put her hand on my shoulder and said
"You'll always have a choice Marinette."
I looked at her and softly said "No at least not for me"

I looked back down at the floor,
I'm only a teenager and i'm tasked with being the guardian and saving Paris from shadow moth

I spoke up again "I have no choice, it's beyond us Alya. It's too heavy to carry"

Alya still had her hand on my shoulder and said "If it's too heavy to carry we'll both carry it."

"If i tell you things will never be the same. It's going to destroy everything change it all"
I said while my voice was cracking as i was trying to hold back tears.

Alya started to speak
"Marinette whatever you say i'm your friend! I'll always be here for you."

"And me.. I'm ladybug."

Alya stared at me with shock.

Please speak

I just fucked everything up haven't I.
I started to cry as Alya wrapped her arms around me in a comforting hug
I was relieved, the hug felt like if warmth

I pulled away from the hug and said "Thank you for understanding Alya."

Alya gave me a soft smile and said "No problem, your my best friend marinette I will always be here"

Alya walked out of my room and left

It was around 6:30

Today took a big mental toll on me

I decided to plug in my headphones and play music and lay down in my bed

The sound of the music drowning out everything and anything felt better than facing anything for the rest of the day

"I want you I hold one card that I can't use but I want you"

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I had fallen asleep a lot earlier than I should've
You know that dreading feeling you get in the morning, pretty much how I feel right now.