I have found happiness. No scratch that, I have found things and people that are the definition of happiness.
I was once a person who thought life sucked and still do.
I was once a person who thought without me in this world, nothing would change.
Through others' eyes, that isn't the case.
To them, I mean something like how they mean something to me.
I have learned to see that we can't love someone or accept something until we accept and love ourselves.
I have come to meet that.
It is hard.
It is difficult to wrap my head around.
I have been happy. Happy as happy gets.
No, not with a person, not a boyfriend, but with myself.
I find happiness in the crooks of darkness.
When it's unexpected.
As I see the sun peak out everyday, the moon coming up, birds flying up in the sky, a kid holding onto a mother's hand, a person smiling, a person laughing, a person hugging someone else, snow falling, music playing
that's where i find happiness
When I make a person smile, that makes my day.
When I help out with something, I feel like I can do something with my being.
I'm not completely useless.
I have dealt with things like messing up on something big, failing a test, do stupid things, and not living up to my highest standard like I should be.
Those days are the gloomy ones but then I think about everywhere around me, there are worse things.
Yes, people slip up. In those slip ups, comes out the people who become successful.
People learn from their mistakes.
Not all but some. These little things give me hope. It makes me smile to see these little things happening around me.
The world is messed up but it doesn't necessarily have to be.
I think we can change it up in the future. People can do anything. No one can tell a person to stop persuing their dream.
And here I am, telling you guys that things always get better. You might not think that now but it always does. Until you guys find your happiness, enjoy life and its moments. The bad and the good. There will always be things we will never know no matter how hard we try and the moments we cherish and never want to let go.
Life in itself is a way for people to restart their lives anytime.There are endless possibilities.
Anything and everything is possible.
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2015.
Random"she wasn't bitter. she was sad, though. but it was a hopeful kind of sad. the kind of sad that just takes time."
