The Adventures of Silver And Ivy: Criminal Minds

Chapter 9:Safety

A/n: hey! Sorry it took a long time. My friend got writers block so. They helped me on this one too. Sorry if it's long. Also the picture is something i colored.

"If I am what I have, and if I lose what I have, who am I then?"
-Erich Fromm

Ivy's POV
As I was falling I started thinking. Why would people want me dead and or kidnapped? First Leia just hates me, second Jason likes Leia, third war reasons? Omg. I'm the person who stops the war. Everyone wants to win the war. So I'm the key to winning. Because I save the world. Because I'm stronger than everyone, they want to win. They need me to win. But exactly why am I the one? Sure I'm powerful but people have dark magic. It doesn't make sense that I'm a God. If I wake up I can do research. Maybe I can put some powers I have in a special place so I'm not too powerful. But I have to wake up. I have to try. But also I need to be there for silver. Is silver ok? Am I ok? I think I need help.

I always thought that I wasn't good enough for anyone. I thought that I shouldn't live to see me go through so much hate. But I want to be happy........ I need to be happy. I need to move on from toxic people in my life and I need to make amends with some people. Is death in slow motion? As I'm falling to the ground everything feels slower and calmer. Like I feel a sudden peace fall upon me. Then my vision gets blurry to the point I can't see anything. But I feel at peace. Like somewhere where I don't feel like shit. Somewhere I can be happy. Wait Ivy... What about silver? And what about living and surviving this. Thinking that made me realize I need to wake up.

I tried my best to wake up. But I couldn't. I just saw blackness. It was weird. I felt at peace and I don't want to change that. I didn't know why. I shouldn't be this way. I shouldn't be someone who always has bad things happen for odd reasons and is suicidal. But I am. Maybe I need a break? A break from everything? Everyone? Maybe I need to move on and do what I have to do just for a while. But seriously I think I need help. I need to just wake up. Please let me wake up.

                                                      ~Flashback~
                                                     ......1 year ago.....
22 year old Ivy's POV
"Silver why?" I asked.
"I know you ivy. You're hiding the fact you're sad. And your body language is proving it." Silver responded.
"Excuse me. I told you to not profile me. Also im fine." I replied with annoyance in my voice.
"No your not." She said.
"Yea i am." I told her.
"Ivy don't lie to me!" Silver yelled at me.
"If your SO concerned, read my mother fucking diary." I told her, immediately regretted what I just said. She ran through the apartment to my room. Silver always knew where I put it which at this moment was a mistake. I fell over the table trying to run to my room to stop silver. I knew I was too late when I fell.
"IVY ROSE KIPMAN!" Silver screamed from my room.
"Yep thats me." I said with a small laugh. Silver ran to the living room, my diary in her hand.
"I SWEAR TO GOD IVY! YOU NEED HELP IF ITS THIS BAD." She yelled at me like I was a child who did something I wasn't fucking suppose to.
"Silver, why do you care so much? It's not like your my mother." I said just letting myself stay on the floor.
"ExCuSe Me!" Silver replied with a lot of attitude. "IVY YOUR MOTHER SUCKKSSSSSS!"
"I know." I told her.
There was silence for a few moments.
"Ivy just take a break ok? You're sad and from what I can tell, really sad about what happened. You NEED to talk about this with  someone. You have talked to no one about it. At least either talk to me about it or just take a mental health break ok?" Silver said. Then she sat down on the floor next to me. She grabbed my arm and looked at my wrist.
"Ivy....." She spoke with a concerned tone.
"I'm not fucking proud of it either silver." I replied.
"Talk to me what happened. We don't have to talk here, we can talk wherever you want. Just talk to me about it ok?" Silver said soothingly.
"Ok fine." I said. I got up and grabbed silver. We teleported to my garden. A safe space for me.
"Ok, now talk to me." Silver said sternly.
"Ok fine. So you know my little sister Nila?" I asked. Silver nodded. "*sigh* I witnessed my mother k-kill her." I started crying.Silver grabbed me and I cried into her chest. Me and my little sister were close. I don't really talk about her just due to that she doesn't want people to know about her. Silver knows but vaguely.
"Nila has been dead since February." I got out.
"She's been dead for 9 MONTHS!" Silver screamed. I just nodded.
"M-my mom murdered her in front of me." I said. Remembering made me cry more. I loved her and hated for her to get hurt. But she did.