~Eli Dawson's Diary~

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At a winter night, I got up with a jolt
I felt it choked me, spreading coldness in my throat.....

The throbbing pain sent shivers down my spine , as realisation struck me with the untold truth in the midst of my mind.......

The broken lie caught me offguard, leaving me in distort stealing my calm.......

Then one day you came like a sun, lighting my dark night....changing my whole life.......
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I still remember the summer that I saw him for the first time.

It was just a snap second when I saw him with that old lady laughing merrily and feeding the birds in the park. It was just a vague moment but I still remember it like it was just yesterday.

I thought we never would cross paths as someone amazing like him would never get involved with a loner like me.

Little did I knew that life would take such a turn that it'd flip my world upside down in just some months.He transferred to our school and was even in the same class as me. What plain luck to bump into him like this and having classes with him around haha. I think I'd go mad at this rate with the sudden change in my luck, such serendipity.

That lad was something else...he would never listen to what people said and had his head in the clouds for the whole day.

I tried my best to keep him away from my gloomy life as much as possible but he was like a stubborn child whom u can't handle say no to.

I never believed in materialistic or emotional things like love, hate , jealousy but being with him made me experience it little by little.

I want to love him but also push him away from me. Just looking at his stupid smile made my day. Oh god how can someone be so dumb that they could smile so easily to even the people who made fun of him.

I never tried to hold onto anything since I was young, I gave it up as soon as I was asked to. But for once I wanted to be selfish and hold onto him, smile at him, wanting him to only smile for me and care for me. As I have time to spare and have zero people around me I can observe and tell how dumb he is. It annoys me when he puts on an even dumber expression while talking to others.

I was always alone but why did he have to entangle himself with me for no particular reason. People always thought I was some kinda proud freak who never bothered about anyone else. Well that's kinda half true but, I was still the outcast. Like I cared but what's the deal with him can't he let me be ugh....