The music continued and it changed to Forever Young in a little. Forever Young passed fast. We ended the performance and headed to our seats again. My performance was nears and I was really nervous because 1. I didn't do a proper rehearsal 2. I didn't want to disappoint Blinks and lastly but not least 3. I saw a ghost from my past that still haunts me everyday(You wish it was a ghost) [I would rather see a ghost than seeing him]
I don't know how many time had past since that moment but it sure felt like hours.
I was in the backstage training a little the dance and do a small voice warming (author: idk if is this what you call but I hope it is😅) when I felt someone in the room.
I turned around with fear it was that one person, but to my luck, it wasn't. It was Kai.
"How you doing" he said and approached me "dying from nervousness" I gigled while saying "It's going to be fine don't worry and I saw your kind of rehearsal and it wasn't that bad" Kai said calming me a little.
Jennie POV (present time)
I know it sounds weird but every time Kai is around I have a weird feeling in my stomach just like..... Butterflies?? . I don't know what it is but it's better if I just ignore it.
Kai POV (present time)
Every time I am around her my head stops work and my heart decides to su*cide himself. I dont know what this is but it's better if I just ignore it.
Jennies POV (the time before the 2 last povs)
Meanwhile Kai got out and I was alone again in the room. I continued my little practice till the staff called me to stage.
I was in the stage and the music started. This music had everything to do with my last relationship and like the music says it was an emotionaless relationship aaand I was literally a goat..... Let me explain
1 year ago (Jennie's birthday)
Here I am in a fancy restaurant dressed with fancy clothes waiting for my boyfriend to show up. If you ask, yes he was the one who planned every thing and apparently ditching on me was one of those plans.
Half an hour passes by and the waiter brings the food. I don't even bother to eat. I just sit here and trying to not lose my bi*ch face.
Another Two hours just have past and I am still waiting here like a clown. I swear to god if Johnny appears in front of me he better pray cuz the Saint and the trinity will fall and will not save him from me.
I get up, pay the bill and get on my car. I will not cry today and that's a promise.
I get to my house and I open the door and get in. I take my shoes of and put my purse on the couch. I go to the kitchen and I hear weird noises coming from my room.
I go to the room and the door is a little open. I peek through the opened door and I see it. That moment was the last drop of water on the glass.
I didn't ran away I may be quiet but I ain't no weak bi*ch. I face my problems with my head up and now my problem is just right through this door.
I enter the room and stand in front of the bed waiting for tham to notice me.
The bi*ch under Johnny was the first noticing me and just like that she started m*an even more loudly his name.
My tears want to fall so badly but I don't let them. Insted I do a little caught to get their attention.
Johny stopped what he was doing snd looked at me. When he noticed who was in front of him his eyes went widened. I limited myself to nod the head.
Before I start to speak I open my mouth for a few seconds and then I say "Just tell me for how long" he doesn't say anything so I say calmly with tears Rolling down my face "For how long have you been cheating on me" "F-For t-two months" he says.
I look to the wall in front of me and say again in a calmly voice "Get out before I start not to be so calm" He and the woman he was with grab their clothes and get out.
I break down in the floor crying my lungs out for the whole night.
A lot of people may say I was stupid to not srceam at him and let my feelings all out but I know if I had screamed to him I would break down just like now.
The day after I didn't show up to yg or answered any of my unnie calls. I was to exausted to do that.
A few months later I decided to let my fellings out to the world and the best way was through a song right? . The lyrics say everything this relationship was, lies, cheating, and fake.
Jennie's POV (back to the Award day)
The performance was just perfect even though I didn't have much of rehearsal. To the rest of this day I just had to wait and receive the awards.
"And now we have the categories of digital song Bonsang with 10 awards and they go to....."
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I hope you enjoy.
– Kisses Byeol
