Possessive much

{17}

Kai

Laying in my room, I turned over to face my clock.

It read 2:30 am, I have been able to sleep for hours.

Ever since Sky confessed and the me and Carlos thing in my room, sleep really hasn't been on my mind.

But more of how the hell am I supposed to react to any of this, Sky randomly dumped Bella and Carlos basically almost fucked my brains out.

I wanted Carlos and Sky to both hold me and fuck my brains out till I couldn't speak but at the end I don't think that'll ever happen.

"Kai you ok baby?" I heard my mom through my door.

Turning over I looked at my door and just blankly stared at it.

I couldn't form any words or even an ok because I knew it would all be a lie.

Moments like this I wish I was dead or even unknown.

Maybe I wasn't good at keeping my feeling to myself, I didn't mean to break any relationships up.

I really didn't...

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I grabbed my phone off my desk and walked out of my room.

I was already running late to school and for some reason couldn't care less.

I was feeling drained and empty.

"Kai you're going to be late son" I walked down the stairs and grabbed the keys to my car.

Leaving out the door, I made my way a to school. The parking lot was crowded.

With kids smoking, couples making out and other joking around.

I quickly got out and made my way towards the front entrance, seeing kids I was cool with but not paying much attention

I just wanted the day to go by fast so I wouldn't have to deal with anyone.

"Kai wait up" I recognized that voice out anywhere which made me walk faster to my class.

I didn't have a answer for him and I didn't know what to do.

I was scared, so I turned down the corner towards the library.

Pulling at the of my jacket, I slowly slide down on the wall.

Why do I fuck everything up, he could've been happy.

He could've been with Bella and be happy.

"F-fuck why do I keep doing this" the words slipped out of my mouth before I caught them.

But it wouldn't matter because maybe it was right, I do fuck up everything.

I can't keep my mouth shut nor can I keep my feeling to myself.

I can't do anything right.

"Kai.."

"My God would you leave me alone" I threw my head back and sighed.

"Who hurt you?" I looked Sky in the eyes and sadly smiled.

"Me,it will always be me" I know I was dramatic.

But I can't help but feel I broke a happy and healthy couple up for my own person needs.

"Shut the hell up" I could've swore in that moment my head broke.

"You didn't do shit wrong, it wasn't a one man thing, ok"

"I chose to break up with her so she wouldn't be strung along, you had nothing to do with my decision"

Sky hands were on my face staring at me.

Like I was the only person that he cared about at the moment.

Before I knew it our lips connected.

It was a soft and slow kiss, it held so much emotion and love"

I wrapped my hands around his neck and deepen the kiss.

Our kiss breaking loose Sky opened his mouth.

"You are one of the most important people in my life ok, you didn't do shit to anyone"

"Now please stop beating yourself up about it, Carlos and I miss you a lot"

I smiled at him with admiration.

Fuck did I miss being around him and Carlos.

I haven't talked to either for days, I couldn't bring myself to.

Sky grabbed my hand and pulled me out the hall.

"We're going to get Carlos then we're going out"