the girls, the gays and the gay girls

Chapter 2

After school, the first thing I did was call Harrison to see where he was. Riley already talked to him during our lunch break but she didn’t get anything out of him and said he didn’t know what Hope could possibly mean. I also tried to talk to Hope because of the way she has been acting lately but I didn’t have the chance to talk to her alone yet. Sydney had to pick up her little sisters from elementary school which is why I had time to talk to Harrison alone. When I pulled my phone out of my jacket to call Harrison someone tapped on my shoulder and I turned around. “Harry!” I said and gave him a big hug. “I wanted to talk to you.” “Me too…” he said in a low and kind of sad voice. “Hey man, what is wrong? Did something happen with Ry?” I asked calm and rubbed is arm. “Uhm… no. Ry and I are okay, but I have to tell you something else. This is really important and I do not want you to tell anyone else!” he answered my question and sat down on the nearest bench. “Of course I am not going to anyone. Whatever it is. But does Hope know?” “Yes, she does.” “Why would you tell her before me? I am almost your sister!” I was kind of hurt and I am sure he heard it. “I didn’t tell her! She found out.” Honestly, that didn’t make it better but I wanted to know what was bugging him so I let it slip. “Alright now, Haz. What is going on?” I asked calmly. Because I saw that he started shaking which means that he was really scared. “Uhm…” he started. I saw the fear in his eyes even though he was looking at the ground. “Haz please look at me!” I took his face into my hand so he had to look at me. “I promise I will not judge you whatever it is. You will always be my brother!” I tried again to make him calm down. “I know that. It’s just really hard for me to say in general.” He took a deep breath and twisted his body around so he was completely facing me now. “Lou… I don’t like Riley. I thought I did but I don’t.” I was shocked. I was the one who had to accept my best friends dating and now he says he doesn’t like her. I was about to say something but he was faster. “I am gay!” he immediately looked to the ground. I didn’t know what to say. When I came out to Harry freshman year he didn’t say anything he just hugged me and I cried in his arms. He held me until I was okay again and then said it’s okay and that he is glad I told him. So that’s what I did too. I looked at him for a quick second and just hugged him. I could tell that he was fighting his tears. So I told him it’s okay if he wants to cry so he did. Eventually, I loosened the hug and hold his face again so that he has to look at me. “Hazza, you know that I am totally fine with this. You know that I am also gay so it would be pretty stupid to say something against it. I am so proud of you for telling me. I know how hard it is and I promise I will help you with everything you need. But the first thing you have to do is break up with Riley. I know it will hurt her and I do not want that but you have to be yourself and nothing in the world should force you to keep pretending to be straight. I love you big little brother. No matter who you like.” “Thank you, Lou! You’re the best little big sister. But I can’t tell Ry. I cannot break her heart.” He whipped his tears away and looked back at the ground. “I know you can’t. Your heart is the purest I have ever seen so it makes sense that you don’t like boobies. No straight guy would be that loving and caring!” I smiled and I saw that a little smile crossed his lips too. “Haz you have to do it anyways. And she deserves to know  the truth!” “I know. Just don’t tell Sydney!” “I won’t, I promise. She might be my girlfriend and the love of my life but you have been my family for way longer. But I have one question. How did Hope found out?” I asked. “Uhm…she… I …” he stuttered. “She caught me and Theo making out the other day.” “You made out with Theo?” I screamed. “Pssst.” He shushed me. “Don’t scream it across the school. Nobody needs to know.” “Sorry.” I kept my voice as low as possible. “Why did you make out with Theo?” His cheeks blushed. “Uhm… I kind of like him and he likes me too. So the other day I was at his house and he came out to me as bisexual. I was so happy because I liked him for a while now but thought he was straight. And I don’t know why but I told him about my crush and he said he also likes me so he kissed me, then backed up saying sorry but then I kissed him and now we are kind of a couple but no one can know because officially  I am still with Riley and straight as a ruler.” “That’s so great I’m really happy for you!” I smiled and he gave me a little smile back but then looked at the ground once again. It’s really cute seeing him being shy. He is usually the tough guy. “You still haven’t told me how Hope found out!” I broached the subject again. “Oh right. So yesterday Theo and I were together at the pack. Riley probably told you.” “Yeah, she did.” I gave a short response. “So… we kind of started making out on the playground and suddenly Hope and her little brother spotted us. But she promised not to tell.” He lifted his head again and looked at me. “Please don’t tell anyone though. Theo and I are not ready to come out yet!” “I already told you that I am not going to tell anyone. Why would I? Bro, I am gay too, I know how fucking scary this shit is. And outing someone? That is the worst thing you could do. Maybe aside from murder.” I laughed and he seemed so relieved. I gave him another hug and we went to the ice cream parlour in our city to celebrate is coming out.