Bloody Poison.(Completed)

chapter 32: no emotions

In two days both of them started to search for every details... The three of them flew to UK to look at the crime scene. Arthit arranged the blueprints of all building near the crime area.

Kong followed arthit and Tay's orders mostly until Tay made an argument "arthit look at this..(photos of building) these building's roof top can allow a shooter to aim at the road but we can't go around checking all the CCTV cameras. We need the accuracy to find the exact building. These all are either residential building or working office. Only 4 of them are suspicious 3 of which are residential and one is a building under a construction company that we know"

Arthit asked "we know??" Tay answered with a hmmm and spoke "the company back 3 years ago asked us for some help and partnership but we declined the offer due to lack of experience in that company and due to the failed attempts of construction they had ".

Kong asked "so can they take revenge ??" Arthit huffed in an irritated way " all ain't you." Kong had enough he tried to explain his shoes the best way possible either arthit should compromise his ego or understand him a bit.

He spoke or more like shouted "p' arthit if you're brother got the same and I was to be the only one suspicious what would you have done...??" Arthit answered "check for evidences"

Kong stood up and shouted broken heartedly " p' I did ...i-i did check... In that road I found a neckpiece with art written on it... Some seniors told me it was yours on inquiry. It had scratches and marks over it as if someone tried to save himself from you and it was a bit broken .the left broken piece of the neckpiece was found in P'AIM's hand ...it was more than evident you did it after aim said it to me...and it have no chance that p' lied about it....s..so I went for revenge "

Arthit had a lot and shouted back "the necklace. I lost it while crossing the road because of its broken hook it fell down. And it got somewhere ...and it had GPS tracker in it because it was implanted by my stepdad.... And aim knew about it .... It had a GPS .so maybe when he saw it he pressed it hard to send me the message from tracker. Which because of being fragile in rain broke....... He never lied to you and that day I only said to him in the back yard that ....f..from tomorrow we are official couples...after that I don't know what happened as I left. Aim was happy...."

Kong shouted back "YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED...TELL ME " arthit answered "n..no I don't" Kong shouted in frustration "you know.mm? The days with you I fell in love with you each day but when I looked at my brother I got drifted away in hatred. That day when ..aim switched off you're ventilation system...I asked him to stop I begged him... I for the first time cried in front of him to stop the torture but he didn't.... The day when you were abused .... I don't know what but I was spiked each day for one whole month....which made me lose my consciousness and ...and do all that to you... I never killed you're friends someone else did .... I only wanted you five to go to jail...nothing more nothing less. I never did that in my consciousness...I didn't even remember about me torturing you untill few months ago I checked the CCTV footage of the room...I was ashamed but I couldn't do that.... The drug took over me..."

Kong cried falling onto his knees .... He was really apologizing for a mistake he never did knowingly..

Arthit felt pity. And spoke " memory displacement..."

Kong asked "what??" Willing his tears... Arthit completed "you're brother had memory displacement in which his memory seemed to be disordered or in a different order than in the reality.... So ... He thought that the man whom he spoke to in the backyard never happened and I was there to harm him...the face of the human got changed by mine ... And I did it to him... It's not a complete loss of memory but a change in certain parts of you're memory"

"I knew it since the beginning... I wanted to tell you the day you bought me at you're home...but you ... You were spiked as you said and...it happened"

Kong stood up and hugged arthit crying "please give me another chance p' please...." Arthit nodded his head in a no and said "I can't Kong I have lost feelings .... I can't feel anything "

Kong asked breaking his hug."what do you mean?" Arthit said Tay to leave and after he left. Arthit spoke ." I have .. partial Alexithymia...the lack of feeling of emotions... I can't feel emotions I don't know till when... The tears I shed for others or the love I feel for p'tay is something I felt before all this shit happended... They are the past feelings I can't feel any emotions.i can't be sad, happy or anything.... After my paralysis I was said about this ... Tay should never know this but I can't feel any emotions. If you even confess today I can only act I can't love you back....I don't know till when this will end." And he turned back.

Kong spoke with tears pricking his eyes "p' I'll make you feel everything... I will wait.... Just act but please accept me.... I always loved you even when I acted...I promise you will feel everything.... I promise" Kong was crying.

Yeah arthit feelings of emotions were partially stopped by his brain... It's been years and the love he showed for Tay way something he referred or acted on the love he once used to feel years ago.... The tears were always for the past things never for the present things more like in sad moments he used to think about bad things that happened to him and cry about that rather than the thing he should show sadness to.

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