My Red

                 

A/n: hey guys its been a while since I updated this story. Here is the full one. I did change some bits to make the story make more sense. Hope you guys enjoy reading it as i writing it.

Hey careful you're about to ####- the words blur and echo, thousands of thoughts cycle through my skull which felt were going a thousand miles an hour. I drew in what I thought were going to be my toughest breaths....

Finally, the reply I've been waiting for came through'. I opened the text and saw that it contained no words- just a solitary emoji, seriously?! Not even a single word. I brush my hair from my face and sighed. ' This is what I get for partnering up with her she probably hates science, way to go me '. I had pondered to myself.

My bed creaked. I had just launched myself into my fortress of comfort. I start noticing that my face started to sting, I glared at the mirror to see I was crying again. I had never felt so isolated in my life, the world through my eyes was black and white ever since he left. I heard the rain hit my window its rhythm had soothed me I studied the blank wall that was across from me. It had felt like the weight of the world was placed on my broad shoulders.

I felt like the most pathetic thing in the universe to be miserable over some girl that doesn't even acknowledge my presence. She probably only agreed to be my partner because I was good at science.

The room was shaking as the door was being pounded into pieces. I had leaped from my seat and almost bashed my head onto the shelf above. 'Ever heard of knocking?' I asked in a sarcastic tone. She smirked and shook her head 'ever heard of not crying over stupid stuff, Sam?' Sallie sneered. Ouch that one hurt.

'What's wrong with you, incredible sulk?' Damn she's good at this. 'Do I have to beat someone up?' She grumbled in an aggressive tone. I shook my head and hung it pathetically. My sister shot me a look of 'tell me what happened.' I studied her face. My eyes filled with stingy tears.

My throat starts to ache. I attempt to choke the sharp bitter words out. 'It's nothing... seriously, I'm fine. I just need to be alone.' She ran to me. she wrapped her large muscular arms around my soft chubby body. She had trapped me in her tight embrace. I couldn't escape. My sadness froze me in place. The last place I wanted to be in that moment would be in her bone-crushing arms.

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I couldn't sleep that night because my mind was racing. Thinking about all of the other partners that I could've picked. It's as if the universe was playing tricks on me. I should've seen this coming. The fact that my day was more bearable should've been my warning sign. My anxiety eased up. I actually understood what most of my teachers where waffling about in school. I didn't even zone out that much. This was HUGE for me. It was all too good to be true. There's always something... Something that I do that absolutely ruins everything.

I should've not talked to Cassy. I shouldn't have talked to that little-miss perfect. I kind of hated her for perfect she was, I even thought that she was fake. I mean for starters She was amazing at Volleyball. She had looked almost angelic-like. She was pretty and radiant. She was also pretty smart not fully a brainiac geek like me. But... Bright. That's what all the teachers say. All of the guys would fall at her feet and do her bidding just for her validation. I had caught myself staring at her two-coloured eyes. I should've looked away and focused on the Chemistry notes... GREAT! I didn't get a good block of the chemistry notes. I hope Olivia. S has them notes. This is the worst thing about me, I always get distracted.

I ripped my red curtains away from my window. A painfully bright light fills my room. I gaze at my phone for a solid 10 seconds trying to figure out what time it is. 6.45AM. Only 15 minutes before my alarm goes off.