Shivika - Suffocation

How To Get Out Of This Suffocation

I know I should have driven, but with the lack of sleep yesterday from what happened with Annika and the happenings of today I knew I was tried to drive. I drove us to the chopper base where we had our chopper and went on our journey back to the place that had brought us so many nightmares, yet was the last time I had really seen Annika smile and be happy. Yes, our first trip here to Shivika Mansion brought us nightmares with Veer's ex-wife terrorizing Annika to the point of her break down, but it was also the place we were able to be with each other without anyone else and that is what I want. I want it to be only us, no one else, only us and our thoughts. When, together we are at our strongest. With, Veer and the whole drama of the secret gone, we can be just us. Two people who love each other and only need each other.

It was late when we arrived, so one we got in I asked Annika to rest and I would bring her something to eat. She denied wanting anything, but we hadn't eaten in hours and both of had to take our medicines. If we were going to get out of this, we would have to be healthy enough to get out.
I went to the kitchen and made tomato soup with some bread. I had informed our house caretaker of our arrival, who along with his wife got the house ready and got groceries. The decision to make a simple meal was I knew Annika and everything she was going to she would not have an appetite, neither did I, but like I said we would have to eat.

I was about to take our food to our room when I got a group call from my brother's. Honestly, today I did not want to even talk with them. All I wanted was to get my wife feed, take her into my arms and sleep. However, I knew my brothers and today they were not calling because they needed me, but because they had seen my wife. Since, the moment she came into our lives she has formed a strong relationship with them. Yesterday, when she was buried alive I could see the pain in their eyes. To them she was not their Bhabhi, but a mother figure and best friend. I would say had it been a couple of days ago I would be jealous of their relationship, but today I understand that if they are calling to check on their Bhabhi it's because she deserves it and has made her place in their lives.

S: Hello
O: Hello
R: Bhiya, hi, how is Bhabhi?
S: (thinking, he knew it they were calling to check on Annika, but he was ok with it) she is resting in our room
O: Room as in Oberoi Mansion
R: Bhiya, please tell me you took Bhabhi somewhere that she can think clearly.
O: Yes, Shivaay of all people Bhabhi needs to get out of that house. That place has become a nightmare for us, image what she is going through. I can see in Gauri's eyes how hurt she was. This was about them all along. Our parents are in a way responsible for what happened with them and their family. At least Gauri got a sister who would protect her and then parents who loved her, but Bhabhi has always suffered and her suffering did not stop even after marrying you. That house has given her so much hurt, yet she has always taken it with stride.
S: Will you guys let me talk... (hearing nothing) we left and I currently living in Shivika Mansion in Goa.
R: Bhiya, in Goa? That place was a nightmare for Bhabhi. Do you remember what happened with her there? The Veer took her peace of mind. How could you take her there?
S: I know what this place did with my wife, but it was also the place I last saw her really smile. This time around I will make sure she is cared for and has room to breathe. It will be only her and me, together we will figure out what our next step is. Whatever the step is, it will be hers to make and mine to support, this time Annika will lead and I will follow. I owe her this.
O: I am proud of you, the man who was always the leader is willing to follow his love.
S: I owe her this Om, we all owe her even Gauri a lot. I have be there for her every step she takes.
R: Wow, bhiya I am so happy. You are thinking about Bhabhi's happiness over the families and putting her first, she deserves this.
S: She deserves it. Anyways, Om how is Gauri and Rudra you haven't driven Bhavya crazy have you?
R: Bhiya, I never drive her crazy, she drives me crazy.
S: Really, we all can see who does what. Let me tell you, you have always been the one to drive everyone crazy.
R: Bhiya, wait once Bhabhi feels up to seeing me I will complain on you.
S: You will do no such thing, I do not need her to fix another issue.
R: I am a issue to you
O: You are a issue to us all
You can hear Rudra's whining.
S: Stop being a crybaby and talk with Bhavya. I know what happened today has impacted Annika and Gauri a lot, but it couldn't be easy for Bhavya to see either. The three have always been like sisters to each other and they can feel each other's pain.
O: I agree with this, when everything came out I saw Bhavya's eyes she felt Gauri's pain and the way she looked at Bhabhi. She wanted nothing more then to pull Bhabhi into her arms and tell her she was not alone.
S: I also saw that
R: You all were looking at my wife
S: We were not looking at your wife, but rather at everyone
R: Ok, I get it, but to tell you. I have spoken to Bhavya and she is shaken. She does not know what to feel. That's what she told me. She was very young when she lost her family and she said that if she was in both the bhabhi's place she does not know how she would have handled it.
S: She has see a lot Rudra and seeing what this family is capable of, I know she is unable to think clearly. While, she has no direct impact, she's also a lost little girl, who needs support and someone she can call her owe. It's your job to show her your there for her. Prove to her no matter what, she matters and you are one.
O: Shivaay is right Rudra. You need to talk with Bhavya and make sure whatever you guys decide to do you do it together.
R: I get it, I will talk with Bhavya, but what about you Om.
O: What about me?
S: His right Om. What about you? Have you spoken with Gauri?
O: Since before we arrived to Bareli all she's done is cry.
S: This is not good for her, you need to support her and tell her your there for her.
O: I have tried, but she isn't ready to talk with me, all she wants was to be with her mother. That is why I decided I needed to bring her here. Since we arrived she hugged her mother and slept on her lap, but I will talk with her in the morning. For the moment I know she needs someone she can call her owe, someone who she can full talk with. I know I want her to talk with me, but sometimes you have to take a step back and let the person be in the arms of the person who they feel safe with. I will talk with her in the morning, right now at least I am happy her mother got her to eat and sleep. I asked Ma to sleep with her today, but when she wakes up and has had time to gather her thoughts I will talk with her about her feelings and what happens next. All I know is once she is out, I know all she will want is to be with Bhabhi and honestly I do not know if that will be possible.
S: Why would it not?
O: As you know Shivaay both our wives went through so much, but Gauri was well protected and loved for. Bhabhi never had that and I do not know if she will recover from this as fast as Gauri. Gauri has told me about how everyone at the orphanage use to hurt Bhabhi and how she gave her food to Gauri. She never let a person lay a hand on Gauri. Then, we know that Gauri was taken from her and afterwards she went to Sahil's parents who also left her. She then had to care about Sahil, while enduring his Bua.
S: I know what your saying and yes Annika will need time to recover for this, possibly more then anyone, but I know that more then anything she needs to know Gauri was taken care of and was loved. She has had nightmares for years, I have seen her screaming for her sister. Knowing that, Gauri was in safe arms maybe something Annika needs. I know it will take awhile, but once ready these sister's will come together, they need each other. I want nothing more then this. I feel in away even papa would want nothing more then his daughters back together. If anything I want to give him, his family back together. They were the Trivedi's and together will make him proud.
O: Did you just call him papa?
S: (Smiling) I did and today I can say asides from being Annika's husband and your, Rudra's, and Pinku's brother, I am proud to be to son-in-law, no son of Mr. Harsh Vandhan Trivedi. A man who worked hard to provide for his daughters. From today onwards I would to glad to be called the son of Harsh Vandhan Trivedi. I will make sure the world knows about the hard working man he was, I will restore his name with the help of Annika.
O: Not only you, I will also help in anyway possible. If anything, I am happy that even if not in person he was able to give me one of his gems, in the form of Gauri. You guys know my relationship with Mr. Oberoi, but with Gauri's father even though he isn't here I am happy to say papa.
R: I will support you guys also. He gave me so much love by making my brothers marry his daughters.
S: Alright, Rudra go talk with Bhavya and Om take rest. I need to get Annika feed and eat myself. We need to take our medicine also.
O: Ok, bye Shivaay take care of yourself and Bhabhi.
R: Yes, Bhiya bye and give Bhabhi love from me.

After, hanging up Shivaay went to their room where he found his wife sitting on the bed staring at nothing in particular. He called her name a couple of times before going next to her and taking her hand into his hand calling her another. After, getting her attention he feed her and she feed him as well knowing he too has not eaten and needs to take his medicine. Once, they were finished he gave her, her medicine and he, himself took his. Then, he made her lay down and caressed her head until she fell asleep.

He took the plates downstairs and washed them, putting them away afterwards. He then, returned upstairs and freshen up, before getting into bed. Staring at his wife, he thought.
S: I know this is a lot to handle, but I am here and will be here with you every step you take. Whatever, the step you are the one that will lead. I have realized, I need nothing or no one other then you. You are all I need and I am all and only yours.
He took his wife's head placing it on his chest. Taking her arm he had it wrapped around his torso. His one arm wrapped around her head and the other around her waist. He looked up and out the window he told the stars in the sky as if speaking with his father-in-law that he will take care of his most prized possession and always be with her no matter what. Returning, his eyes back at his wife kissing her forehead, he closed his eyes feeling nothing but love for her.

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I will have another chapter with more of the girls perspective.