Tears of Sorrow
Beginning
Looking at the glass of liqueur in my hand while my tears fall down my cheeks. I smiled bitterly.
Tangina! Bakit?
We're going to get married this month. Pero bakit nagawa niya sakin ang bagay na magiging dahilan ng pag kasira ng relasyon namin? Fuck him! Fuck all of them. Bullshit... I shout because of the pain that I felt. I just want to put in my mind that this is a nightmare. But fucking, no...
I put my hand in my face. Hindi na ako makahinga ng ayos dahil sa sakit. Hirap na hirap na ako. Gusto ko nalang mawala.
"Frank?" Mom called me worried. She looks at the liqueur on the table. Because of the anger, I throw the bottle of liqueur on the wall.
Mom Startled because of what I did. Napa-upo nalang ako sa sahig at napayuko habang hindi matigil ang tangina luha na pumapatak sa aking pisngi.
Mom comes on me and hugs me tight. I break down in my Mom Arms. "Frank? Anak...Please...Baby! Don't give up. Mom is here. I'm here baby. I'm here..." Mom whispered to me. I felt my Mom tears falling down on my shoulder. "Baby... Mahal na mahal kita. Mahal ka ni Mama..."
"Mom? Why? Bakit niya nagawa na saktan ako? Mom ang sakit sakit! Papakasalan ko siya Mom. Ikakasal na kami pero bakit niya na gawa ang bagay na ikakasira namin? Bakit niya na gawa na patayin ako sa sakit? Tangina...Mom! Subrang sakit. Ang sakit sakit..."
Mom looks at me with her Unhappy face and she Caresses my face. "Baby..." I saw her tears falling down. "I know it hurts...But baby, please...Talk to her first. The two of you deserve an explanation. You deserve an explanation." she advised which make me angry.
"I can't..." I hate her. I don't want to see her anymore. I don't want to hear her explanation. I don't want to know the fuck that she didn't love me. Ayaw ko na patayin pa lalo ang sarili ko. Hindi ko kaya. She cheated on me. I trust her. But she broke that. What hurts the most is when you trust someone blindly, and that person proves to you that you are really blind.
Fuck him. Fuck her.
I'm the happiest man in the Universe because we're getting married. She said yes. Our dream as a couple is going to Be fulfilled. I hug her because of the happiness that I felt. Napasigaw ako dahil sa kasiyahan. Pinahid ko ang luha na tumulo sa pisngi ko.
"I love you, Baby. I love you so much, Alanis. You're my world. You're my life. Thank you..." I said to her full of love.
While we're dancing in Masasa beach. I kiss her hair. Her head is on my shoulder. Nakapikit siya pinapakingan ang bawat pintig ng mabilis na tibok ng aking puso. Ang liwanag ng buwan ang nagbibigay liwanag sa paligid sapat na para makita ko ang kagandahan ng fiancee ko.
She's wearing white dress. Ang mahaba niya na buhok ay umaalon dahil sa hangin ramdam ko ang lamig ng hangin na dumadampi sa aking balat. Our memorable night. Her eyes are beautiful like an ocean. The waves in the ocean is like my heart. Masyadong mabilis ang gulong ng mga alon.
Wearing white polo shirts and white pants. Parehas kami na nakatapak habang sumasayaw. Ang buhok ko ay magulo na dahil sa lakas ng hangin na nag mula sa karagatan.
"Baby? " she called me.
"I love you..." I answered her. That makes her smile.
"Your my safe place. You're my life. Hindi ko alam ang mangyayari sakin pag nawala ka sa tabi ko." Her eyes are serious. I kissed her nose and her lips.
