Battle of the Boyfriends ~ Lucas & Hendery[WayV]

Chapter 7

*New Year's Day | Jan. 1, 2024*
I'm laying in my bed alone, Lucas is nowhere to be found. The only thing left behind by Lucas is his black trench coat, an iconic piece of clothing for Lucas. Around autumn and winter, Lucas can be caught wearing this trench coat at the airport. What's more surprising is the little note he left behind for me. It reads: Hey, sweet babe ;) I left this morning at 4 am to catch my flight back to Seoul... sorry I didn't say goodbye, but I leave u with my favorite trench coat. Wear it when you're missing me most. Hope to. . . See u soon :p

When I finished reading his note, I stuff it into one of my binders for safekeeping. I throw his large trench coat onto myself. Lucas being nearly a whole foot taller than me, this trench coat drags on the floor. The only way for me to make this piece work with my outfit is if I wear high-heeled boots. I think I can come up with something. A perfect winter-themed outfit with Lucas's favorite trench coat. I take a few things out of my closet. I grab a white turtle-neck to contrast the black trench coat. Black jeans for bottoms. Finally; a pair of over-the-knee, 8-inch, leather black boots. I stumble a bit because I'm not used to being 6'0 in these high-heeled boots. Just standing here, seeing the world from such a height. Wow, this is different and crazy. My poor footsies are already sore. These boots are the only ones that I own, that would make me tall enough to prevent the jacket from dragging on the floor. Finally, I get a decent photo of my OOTD, send it to the NCT group chat and wait. In the mean time, waiting for their reactions, I throw my demons of boots off my feet. The things I do just to get a reaction out of people. It's truly not healthy, but it's fun at times. Oh well.

After trying out that nice winter outfit, I opt out the real tall high heeled boots for a more comfortable pair of boots. The second option pair of boots are just ankle boots with a near 3-inch heel. They're much better than whatever those other boots were. Trying on the same outfit with the shorter boots felt much more comfortable. I then take a second photo and send it to the guys. Lots of the members had already reacted to the first photo, replaying with heart emojis, saying that I match Lucas perfectly now. Lucas himself even said: we can be trees together now. You were like a little flower, I was a tree. You are a tree w/ me teehee. In reply, I text: pfft, shh. U know I'm short irl, you don't need to make me feel better by calling me a tee in those crazy asf heels😅. Lucas😍: u know I luv u💞💋 Ten: should we all leave? U guys need a moment😏. Me: shut up Ten😂😆. Johnny: yuhh, u guys better get back together soon. Lucas says he misses u already 😝. Me: guyssss😩 I miss u all. I wish we could hang out, but I gotta finish this degree sometime, ya know💀. Jungwoo: fighting!! Haechan: don't worry, gurl. It's okay, gurl🥺💚. Me: well, I've got to go now. Gotta prepare for the spring semester that'll be staring up soon🥲. Mark: don't miss us too much😏😉😆

As I'm getting into more comfortable clothing, changing out of that nice outfit, Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift plays from my 2010's inspired playlist on Spotify. It's a song song brings me a lot of nestolgia. It's a song that I used to a lot when I was young. The song came out in 2014, the year between my two trips to the Philippines. I was between 3rd and 4th grade at that time. What a long time ago it feels like. Damn, I feel old now. What's crazier is that the maknae in NCT is only about a year and 8 months older than me. All the members of NCT are older than me, but also still close to my age. Aside from Taeil, who is the oldest and a whole 9 years older than me. Age aside, I sing along to Wildest Dreams, picturing my whole future with Lucas. When the song ends, I'm in tears because of fear. Fear that what I'm making up in my head is too ambitious for our near impossible relationship. Lucas is a public figure in Korea, China, as well as out here in America. Being signed to SM Entertainment for his activities in Korea, their subsidiary label - Label V for all activities in China, and Capitol Records for his activities in SuperM. There is are probably millions of fans of Lucas who would die to be in the position I'm in. Having a boyfriend who is in the public eye is an anxiety attack waiting to happen when everyone finds out who I am. The worst case scenario is dealing with sasaeng fans, who are stalker fans. They find out every single detail of a K-pop or C-pop idols personal information, how they do is beyond something anyone can fathom.

Pushing all these anxious ideas about our relationship past me, following Wildest Dreams are these songs: Jet Black Heart by 5SOS, Lego House by Ed Sheeran, and WITHOUT YOU(*iconic*) by NCT U. This playlist has so many moods for me. Ah, I love it. I sing every word to WITHOUT YOU in perfect Korean & English. They had released a music video to this song which had pictures and clips of NCT from their trainee days, and let me say, they looked so freaking cute. Following WITHOUT YOU is Someone's Someone by MONSTA X. Literally aww. I set up my camera and start filming a singalong to this song. It's one of my favorites on that album, ALL ABOUT LUV. I even made a cover of it and it blew up in a way I never expected it to. 1 million views in a year. That's mind blowing to me. It gave me hope that I can make music, follow one of my creative passions. I can't wait for the day that one of my favorite artists notices my talents. . .