You Will Love Me

chapter 5

Christina's POV

I stood there crying, screaming, my body giving up every liquid I had through my eyes, my heart aching through my chest, pain seeping through my skin, my wolf telling me it was bound to happen to us, I felt betrayed by my wolf, she had to protect my heart and she should have killed Lucas.

Jake held me in his arms and I couldn't bring myself to stop, to stop hurting, to stop thinking Lucas will be happy without me, and to stop myself from killing him. My wolf blocked me from the outside noise, I didn't hear anything but my breathing, she stopped me from thinking or feeling, emptiness filled me up, felt hollow but at the same time I felt peace, I knew she will save me from myself.

Jake pulled me to my feet as he was talking to a man in a white coat who looked at me with pity, he helped me walk as I leaned into him for support. He took me to a room that felt cold on my skin as we walked in, I heard machines making steady sounds before me which comforted me, and in the distance was a bed and a person on it lying lifeless but breathing, it was my Moana, my wolf took me out of the zone she put me in and said

"our pup needs help" and I ran towards her touching and smelling her in me, I looked at her and said

"I will never let you out of my sight again Moana"

Jake come and patted my back oh so gently as I needed it.

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Days went by...

Today Lucas was getting discharged and I haven't seen or heard from him. It's like he erased me out of his life since he found his mate. Jake's routine was simple, get up, shower, eat and go to the hospital he hardly talks to me also. Jake never tells me about his visits with his dad and I just respected that he didn't want to talk to me about it.

I visit Moana from morning till late I sometimes forget to eat.
Today was the third Monday the doctor promised to try to wake her up by inducing her with dopsoncosis which I have no idea what it is.

My phone rang and I quickly answered it, it was Jake "Morning son, are you picking me up to go to the hospital together?" I could hear him take out a heavy sigh like the whole world was standing out his lungs, "no mom" he said, "I just need to talk to you before you go to the hospital am on my way" he didn't even wait for me to reply and he hanged up, Jakes seems stressed that why he's acting like this, I am his mother and I will be there for him as I told myself.

I sat on my bed waiting for him to enter my room with a big smile on my face, I just hope it doesn't look faked cause that's how my wolf felt it was. Jake walked into my room with his head hanging down low and made his way a few meters away from me. "Morning mom" I looked at him and he still didn't make eye contact with me. "Morning Jake, you look well-rested" as I gave him a small smile, he stood there looking like he didn't want to be here. I had to ask "Jake are you alright? Is everything okay with you? You do know am here for you no matter what, you're my firstborn son and that will never change" I stood up making my way to him to hug him and he moved away from me...

"Jake please why are you doing this to me am your mother", he looked at me and I saw pity in his eyes. "Is this about your father?" As I looked into his eyes trying to search for answers, "Jake you can tell me anything". he shifted his leg from one leg to the other looking uncomfortable, and said "Look mom I don't know how to tell you this, but I just need you to sit down and relax okay" I looked at his face after what he said, I could see his tired and drain, all I wanted to do was to hold him, hug him and make sure he felt safe in my arms, but that's not what he wanted, my eyes filled up as I felt a tear escaping down my cheek, I moved back away from him and I sat on my bed.