loved by royalty ༄ hyunlix

argue.

[okay okay for real this time]

❝𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬.❞ [Hyunjin's POV]

All the effort on trying to avoid my father wasted when I met him in front of my bedroom door, his face tainted with disappointment as his gaze made me feel small. I have a bad feeling about this.

"So, let's talk about your boyfriend." He blurted, leaning on the door with his hands holding on to the door knob as support.

That's it. I hate it here.

"B-boyfriend? What are you talking about?" I said, trying to muster up every single piece of my confidence to babble those words out. I mentally slapped myself for stuttering, which made it even more obvious that he was right.

"Yeah, boyfriend." He crossed his arms as he looked at me, intimidating the living lights out of me. I felt like if I talked any more, I'd end up choking on my own spit.

"You see, as much as I don't want you to get hurt, royals can't be with civilians. It's the law. I don't know who was stupid enough to make something such useless but I don't have the power to change it. If you force it either one of you gets executed, I don't want that." His voice was filled with anger and..

...hurt?

His eyes glossy, tears threatening to fall out. Why though?

"A-are you cry-ying?" There was literally no use on hiding it anymore so there you have it. Me trying to be all tough crashed in a mere second. I opened the door to my room and settled him to sit down on the bed, I sat on the floor because why not? The carpet is fluffy anyway.

"Listen, that boy- his mother. I fell in love with his mother." He managed to say out loud, each word shifting into a whisper. His tears started flowing down the side of his cheeks.

"Pardon?" I couldn't believe it, nor at the same time process the information I'm receiving.

"Felix right? He was born before I met her, but she was divorced. The moment the palace knew about us she was sentenced to execution, I couldn't do anything." He wiped off the droplets of tears that fell from his eyes, evident anger seen in him.

He didn't want me to go through that, too?

"Break up with him, it's for the best." He said. His words felt sincere, but I couldn't help but refuse.

"No, I...I won't break up with him." I said as I stood up from my place, the comfort of the carpet floor disappearing as I ran my fingers through my hair. No, I won't. Whatever happens.

"Hyunjin it-"

"No, we just started, I can't let it end that easily." I huffed, my eyes were watering. The thought of letting go of something that made me happy in a second wasn't clicking with me. The thought of him being hurt because of me made me want to hate myself. I wanted to be his source of happiness, not pain. I wanted to be with him 'til we grew old.

But this crap happens.

I knew how much my father understood what I felt but I couldn't seem to agree, why wouldn't he fight for a person you love so much? Why would he just watch her die without telling her he loved her one last time?

Why wouldn't he risk his life for her?

"Hyunjin listen-"

"YOU'VE BEEN IN MY PLACE! YOU SHOULD UNDERSTAND!" I snapped. I wanted to leave.

"Y-you have a month until the wedding, go, be with him, I'm giving you a chance." He forced a smile. His cheeks stained with tears from earlier, while I was still sobbing like a wimp.

Wait, wedding?

"What d-do you mean 'w-wedding'?" I said in between sobs, my eyes swollen from all the crying. His gaze was fixed on the window sill, sighing.

"Someone must take the throne someday, and that'll be you." He stood up from his place and walked out the door, not looking back from where he came from.

One month, make it worth it.

I got my phone and scrolled through my contacts, I landed on Felix's number and called him.

Yeah? What's wrong?

Can I come over? I wanna be with my baby.

S-sure, you can.

Hearing his voice makes me feel safe, being in his arms make me feel loved, he makes me feel special.

I wore a coat and paired some black leather boots, I told Sinju that if my father asked where I was he would answer with 'he's taking his time'.

I picked up a coffee on the way and arrived in front of his house. I knocked on the door, revealing a half sleepy Felix as soon as it opened.

"Did I wake you up?" I asked, holding his hand as he closed the door. "Well, maybe, but it's okay." He replied sleepily, about to doze off any minute by now.

"Let's go back to sleep, hm?" I patted the top of his head, his soft hair in contact with my skin. He weakly smiled, placing his hands around my neck.

"My room is upstairs, second door to the right." "Alrighty." I carried him in my arms, he wasn't as heavy as I thought. In fact, he was as heavy as a pillow. Does he eat properly?

I quietly opened his bedroom door, trying my best not to wake him up. I placed him gently on his bed and tucked him in. His eyes fluttering shut as he slept ever so calmly. I smiled at the sight. Tiny little snores echoed throughout the room, making me drowsy as well.

I laid down beside Felix, cuddling him to my comfort. The author feeling touch deprived, jealous that she doesn't get any.

A lone tear drifted down to one of the pillows. I'm sorry, Felix. I can't keep you...

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