Why am I writing this? Who is this for? If this was purely for myself, then I would be wiser to write this elsewhere. Then is this for friends? Well then that makes it feel strange.
And mainly, what is the purpose of this? I feel like I am doing this for attention, if that's the case, then it's better to close this. Maybe I can justify this as doing something "together" with friends, it's nice when you have a common hobby or activity you share, so this could be it.
Then this will stay among just a few of my friends who I think I wouldn't mind seeing this.
I could also read this many years later, look back at how I was before. It will probably be painful to read and difficult to ge through. It also feels so surreal.
It's also strange how this feels like it's just a monologue spoken only with oneself, heard by no one else in the world, yet it can be seen by others.
