All the memories of what could have been...

The unwanted kiss

Today was the day that Warren and I actually intend to see each other. It was kind of stressful, because all the times that I've seen him he was always trying not to see me and now he might actually put up an act to be different just because he thinks it's probably a date. But for me I'm not going to do any of that it's just going to be a normal friend kind of hang out where nothing is going to happen except we are going to watch a lot of movies and eat stuff. All I think about is what I'm going to wear which I probably I'm just gonna wear something normal because it is a normal thing to be hanging out with him. First I would have to go grocery shopping for all the snacks and food then, just go to a café and finally get a shower, get dressed, he will be here. I don't know what his intentions are but I'm gonna make sure it's nothing other than us becoming friends because my dad actually wants me to turn into a different person and I'm sure he would be happy if I turn into that sick person again. The grocery store wasn't that busy all I had to get was some pastries and pasta. The café was filled with people sitting at tables and talking with each other, over a long way I finally got my drink. My mom had a left a little note on the kitchen counter saying "I will be back have a party to go to love you!" Of course she was gone but I didn't care that much because I asked her to leave anyway and she find a way to obtain her time. It is exactly 1 hour until Warren will come to my house, those are words I never thought I was gonna say or think for that matter he and I just don't seem like we would be friends and sure as hell not a couple. A warm shower washed all my thoughts away I'm just picturing of how this night might go and my expectations. At the end of the night, at the last second of the movie he will want to kiss me and I won't because that's not how I wanted to play out I don't want to get the guy I just wanna have a friend in Paris other than strangers that all stare at me. After my shower I got the downstairs ready with blankets and popcorn, different Parisian foods, and my pasta. The knock at the door was just like a strike of lightning hitting my heart it was fast but I had no time to think, and I just headed to the door with no worries. I unlocked the front door and saw Warren in  Jeans and a T-shirt looking straight down at my outfit; grey sweatpants and a tank top. "Hey so I brought over my favorite movies which includes "Ferris Bueller's Day Off" and "The Breakfast Club". He said walking through the door. "Well I picked out "sixteen candles" and "the notebook" as you've never watched and said it wasn't the best movie ever but now you will see" My face with filled with happiness is see him grinning at my enjoyment to a movie. "Ok I will watched it but only if we watch one more movie of mine" He implied, I was shocked that he would just invite himself over even more. "We are going to be up ALL NIGHT so sorry but if you ruin my plans to make this night actually some what enjoyable, there is the door." The finger was pointed right to door where his eyes stated and looked back up at mine. "Fine fine but next time you only get one movie" he looked around puzzled to know where anything was but my smile invited him over to the living room and he followed me taking every space of my house in his memory like a museum. "Welcome..." I said after we got out of the hallway and to the couch with foods on the table. "Wow you went all out, who know I'm not intending for anything to happen. You really don't have to impress me" He stated, trying to signal: he isn't into me. "Well I know but half the stuff was my moms idea so it is kind of over board." My eyes even were looking at the big coffee-table filled with food. "It's fine really, you make me blush for how much you actually care even though we both don't really like each other at all" He sat on the couch and grabbed the remote. "Which movie first?" We watch all three films other than "the Notebook" which I planned on because it was the one movie he hasn't watched. "You ready for this cinematic changing movie that is by far the best romantic movie" I said with a big smile on my face, while Warren rolls his eyes. "Sure..." As the remote click the beautiful lake appeared on the screen. And the movie was over, I'm crying with just one tear down my face and Warren is facing me with a big smiling, he's just laughing while I'm sitting in my tears. "How are you not crying but what did you think??" My voice screamed in faded excitement . "Yeah it was good for a romance movie" I could just see in the way his mouth moved as he said it and I knew he liked it. "It's late you better get going." I said as I stood up for sitting for like 4 hours, it was now 12:17. "Yes I guess I should" this was the awkward part of the night: saying bye. We walked through the little hallway to the front door. As I tried opening the door Warren's hand grabbed my wrist and pulled me to him. Just in the moment; he kissed me. It was perfect and the way that our lips touched was like finally getting back air that was needed and it was a relief. He hands moved down my body. But I can't just kiss him so my hand move to his chest and push him back with just little force. "Look we just meet and for you to think you can act like you actually care to hang out with me just to get in my bed, you are wrong because when I said "I think it's time you go" you just go"The anger in my voice was so strong and he just looked so shocked. "That's not what I doing, but if you want me to leave. I will" his body flashed right by me unexpectedly. How is he the one angry right now? He wasn't the one getting kiss but not actually wanting it completely. Is he really worth my time? Should I see him again? But that question was the one in my mind the most, what would I do if I did see him again?