My mom used to say something to me that every person needs to feel and experience different emotions and you'll decide if you'll make it a reason to live or used it as your strength. And that's what I did, too much pain I get from him can be unforgivable but that pain I feel make me wonder and realized that I could change and be careful next time so you won't make the same mistake over and over.
As I walked in the hallway to grandpa's office, I noticed that Until now the maids that work here is still scared of me because kahit nakita lang nila ako dumaan sa hallway they walk away or hide...I guess they didn't forget how I killed a maid and a bodyguard when I was twelve years old by my own hands.
I continue to walk to his office and when I got there I first knocked on his door three times and open the door. When I got inside I see his usual side even now, seating on his favorite chair while reading some documents and the cup of coffee that was place on his left side. He... reminds me of my..dad.
I stared my grandpa there for a couple of seconds and when he noticed me he put the document his reading on the cabin of his table, I think it is an important document for him. Then he giving me a sign that I could seat on one of the chairs in the room so I think this is important one.
" Pinapunta kita dito dahil may sasabihin ako sayo.." he said then give me a serious look and has also a hesitation on his face like he is deciding if he should tell it or not and I'm not on the mood right now for waiting so I rolled my eyes on him and he noticed it and know what I mean so he cleared his throat and continue. '' you'll be attending a different school this year and I have a reason why you shouldn't declined it....as your studying there take your time also on finding your fiancee there." And by that I couldn't find a right words to reply because he made a decision again without asking on my opinion on and about this... and this is what I hated on him..for real.
He didn't just transfer me to other school but to give me a mission to find my fiancee.. what am I now..dora the explorer?!.
And I can accept anything except on the early marriage without love it's not absurd for me who knows that a killer like psycho like me wants to be love even the my hands are stained already with blood and guilt starting when I arrive in this world. '' I can accept that your transferring me to other school this year but...I disagree the marriage thing, you can't force me to wear a big smile in front of the altar marrying a man that I don't love, if you want me to get married then cancel the arragements you did on my so called ' fiancee ' and let me find my own husband while I'm still here. " I said as I stare my grandpa with a serious look and he just look me with a helpless look.
You can control everyone here and anywhere in this world but not me...
" But...if you don't agree on it, iisipin nila na hindi tayo tumutupad sa usapan and it would cause a big problem to our company." Grandpa said to me and I just lowered my head to control the anger I'm into right now, and I'm feeling that I want to kill someone today.. how could he do this to me...
I show all my irration and anger I felt today and for him it doesn't matter if I people would think I don't have any respect but this is me and you can't change a person from who they are. " It's not my fault that you made an agreement on someone and you didn't even ask or hear any of my opinions you just put me in place I shouldn't be placed and now.. your worried about it, you should think in advance before putting a risk on something or it will do some consequences that you'll never expect.. grandpa." I said and decided to leave but before I finally got out, I said something to him that made him look at me " before putting someone into a war think also what their capable of because it might other regret it someday.." I said at binuksan ang pinto, lalabas sana na ako nang merong sinabi si grandpa that made me also stop.
" Your not gonna do something..are you just because your mad? " He really sense my anger that I've been holding in this entire time good job grandpa I'll give you an award for that but... you can't control me like my dead parents did to me long ago. I faced him with a fake big smile and said '' if I want to kill someone just because I was mad then I already did that and killed your favorite assistant... can't you see that the demon who is born in this world is trying to pay her sins by behaving and going to church..who knows that what if one day will meet each other in the heaven when will perish in this world. ," I said and immediately leave the place and directly headed to my room.
The cursed that was putted in me shouldn't be activated if I haven't killed my father that day, as I grow up I already know that, that fight that happened back then is for me because when I saved my mom, I thought it would remain to it's original state but I was wrong... after that incident happened, my mom blame all I did to that day until she falls and got into an ill and got insane just because she can't accept that I awaken the curse that she doesn't wants to until.. one day she commit a suicide for short she killed herself by jumping on the rooftop.
Grandpa can't accept me after the funeral ends, because he hated me and blamed me on his daughter's death but in the end he accepts me and not just like he wanted to but he have no choice because it's part of my mother's last will it was hard for the both of us but he managed to adjust a bit for my own sake then I meet clive his assistant.
At first I looked at him like a weirdo and strange person, we have a 5 years gap. His 17 years old in that time working as an intern assistant and I'm 13 year old in that time spending my time on underground fights, always going out late at night for car racing and going home drunk . My grandpa wasn't happy on what I did so he assist clive to be my watch guard or observer whenever I go he will follow me it is quite annoying for me because I can't go to the place I recently visits and can only go if luck is on my side but if not I'm caged or staying at home pretending to be a good girl.
As years pass, and he still continues doing it, it made me change a little until I fall in love to him...we became a couple for 2 years but it stop there and tragedies and misfortunes falling like dominos one after another like that. When I wake up from an accident I can clearly remember everything but I pretend I didn't and it works very well and I continue to do what I do in the past and even started to kill other people who I hated and those who blocked my way, I killed them without hesitation and it made me so happy because I look like a good demon trying to help clearing and cleaning the earth by ending the life on someone that isn't worth it enough to continue living in this fuckin world.
I shouldn't trust anyone even though... it's hard.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Untold Curse
Fantasy"I've never been wanted to kill in the first place.." I smiles at dinadama ang hangin " then if you don't want to do it in the first place then why did you do it?.." he said as he look at me, I face him with a bitter smile " it's a curse... that's w...
