~Nessa
I still remember that 3rd of December, that day when we finished recording La Di Die and it was raining a lot, you left me your sweater because I was only wearing a short shirt and I was very cold. You joked that it looked better on me than on you. If only you had known how much I started to like you in that moment...I wish I was her.
You're with her, I know and I feel terrible for having these feelings, she's my friend and you're best friends with my ex. I see your eyes when she's passing, what a joy for those eyes that have been through so much pain. She has you mesmerized while I die...I wish I was her.
Sometimes I think even if we didn't have the problem that you're dating my best friend and Josh is your best friend, you'd still never get to kiss me, I'm not half as beautiful as she is...I wish I was her.
December 15th, you gave her your sweater , I know it's only polyester but you like her more than me, I know because you don't even like me a little bit...I wish I was her.
You don't know how it hurts, watching you every day with her, how she takes your hand and you smile at her and put your arm around her shoulder, I feel cold watching that, I feel like I'm slowly dying...I wish I was her.
What if I hate her? Hate Mads? I couldn't, how could I? She's an angel, she makes you happy but sometimes I wish she didn't exist...I wish I was her.
We were in the studio and I remember her walking past us, what a joy for your hurt eyes brighter than the blue sky, you saw her and I felt all the tiredness from filming disappear and it turned into a big smile to see her there. She has you mesmerised while I die...I wish I was her.
Why would you ever look at me like that? Or kiss me the way you kiss her or just hold my hand as we take walks in this city...I wish I was her.
I wish I could be her with all my might but I know that won't happen, you love her and I can't stand in the way of that, I want you to be happy and she's good for you, and if you're happy...I'm happy too.
That's why Jaden Hossler, I'm giving you this letter today, to confess my feelings but without you having the option to talk to me, when you're reading this I'll probably be on a plane to a place I don't even know where I'm going, I won't say goodbye, I'm sorry, I can't. I'm leaving, I can't come back and I just want to say goodbye. I'll leave never to return and I just don't want you to feel guilty about anything, be happy with her, be happy the way I'd want you to be with me.
I love you Jaden Hossler, and I always will.
~Nessa Barret
Omniscient Narrator
Jaden received the letter, it hurt him to read the words of this girl he loved but not the way she did, (not anymore), he didn't tell anyone about the letter to avoid confusion but he was sorry he didn't realize it sooner and at least say goodbye to her and tell her that there was a time when he loved her like she loved him and he often wished he had been Josh, but now he was happy with Mads and could only hope she would find someone who would make him feel that way.
As he once said:
I love you Nessa, but sometimes if you love someone ...you have to let them go.
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Ahhhhhhhh!!! My first Naden story...I hope you liked the chapter and please vote and comment ❤️.
This One shot is inspired by Heather by Conan Gray and I've been modifying it and it hurts me a lot that in the end Ness and Jaden won't stay together hehe....
I love Naden with all my being even though I feel bad for Josh and Mads....
I hope I can upload others soon!!! 🥰
Bye!!!
