when i was your man ~ sakuatsu one shot

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sakusa tried his best, he knows by far he was probably the worst boyfriend atsumu ever had.

and yet, atsumu stayed for a year, till he lost his patience.

their breakup was bad, sakusa said the most hurtful sentence he ever could, knowing what would happen.

"omi, it wasn't like that, kita was just comforting me, ya missed our annive-" sakusa scoffed, cutting atsumu off

"he's obviously in love with you, and that's what gets me mad, he was all over you and you're to oblivious to fucking notice" sakusa scowled; angrily

"i-i'm sorry, i thought he liked aran" atsumu said softly "tch, yeah right. if only i dated osamu, he isn't as dense as you, this is why he's the better twin" sakusa said without thinking.

atsumu's heart shattered, there was one thing he was the most insecure about, the one thing he absolutely hated.

people telling him, osamu was the better twin.

growing up people would look down on him.

everyone preferred osamu. his teammates, family, and now his own boyfriend.

"wait no, i- i didn't mean that" sakusa said and atsumu shook his head and gave a soft, yet broken smile

"n-no it's fine.. ya wouldn't have said it, if ya didn't mean it, but i understand. osamu is better than me, i should've known ya thought that too" atsumu said softly, tearing threatening to escape his eyes.

"wait 'tsumu-" atsumu waved his hands dismissively "it's fine, i'm gonna go, bye sakusa" sakusa eyes widened, tears now streaming down his pale face.

atsumu left sakusa's house, and started driving back home, sakusa fell to his knees.

he had ruined everything, he said the one thing he promised himself he'd never say.

he didn't even mean it, he didn't think osamu was better. he fell for atsumu's personality not osamu's

yet, found himself saying that sentence.

~*~*~*~*

a few months later

sakusa never tried contacting atsumu, probably because he knew atsumu deserved better. sakusa was on his bed, scrolling through instagram.

he always went to instagram when he wanted to stop crying and distract himself from thinking about atsumu, and instagram had stupid videos that made him laugh.

though, a specific image caught his eyes. it was his ex-boyfriend with kita. the male sakusa was insecure about.

atsumu was kissing his cheek, but he looked happier than he did with sakusa.

and once again, sakusa found himself on the verge of tears, he went down to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of alcohol and went back to his room.

he took off the cork, and started chugging. once he started feeling the effect of the alcohol, he was in a different state of mind.

he probably was gonna regret this tomorrow morning, but might as well.

sakusa unlocked his phone, and went on atsumu's contact and took another sip.

sakusa:
same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now, our song on the radio but it don't sound the same

atsumu:
sakusa ?

sakusa:
when our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down 'cause my heart breaks a little when i hear your name, it all just sounds like ooh