A/N: I feel like I should write an explanation about why I didn't update in years, well then here it is -> honestly because I didn't have any hopes for it, even when I read it, I cringe, because I find it terrible, but since there are a few people who like it and as a reader I know how terrible it feels for a book that you like to not be updated again that is why I am here. I am sorry for making you feel that way, also I have no ideas about where I will take this story so please comment ideas you want and if I can make it work I will, also though I am making an attempt to write again but still I don't if I will be able to finish it, sorry for that.
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Beam's POV
We are back!
The two day trip, which felt like a paradise has come to an end and now we have to face the real world again *sigh*.
And now that we are back, we are having a really hard time to adjust, because as soon as we all got in a relationship we went on a trip, to a place where there was no restriction, we loved each other freely and wholeheartedly. We were far away from the prying eyes of others, enclosed in our love bubble where the world didn't exist.
Unfortunately, the bubble burst, we are back in lime light, back to a place where every body knows the crazy doc gang, where everybody knows us as bestfriends, they think of us as close brothers.
We are back to the world, this world where people already struggle with accepting gay relationships let alone a gay polygamous relationship. Thus the game of hide and seek has begun. Now every single moment we struggle with hiding our affection for each other, to keep our actions and words in check, to have to hide whenever we feel overwhelmed with our emotions and want to express them.
In short we have come back to our personal hell.
Kit's POV
"Kitty, I hate this !, this is hell, I love you and I love pha and I want the world to know that!"
Beam has been basically saying different versions of the same thing since we came back and realized that we can't love each other freely anymore, that the world sees our love as abnormal, and every time I realize that it hurts.
It hurts like hell to think that the love that I was finally declare has to go into hiding again. It hurts when I refuse to hold beam's hand in public or refuse to sit in Pha's lap anymore and see sadness in their eyes. It hurts me when I hurt them like that and I feel helpless because I can't give them what they want.
"I know beamie, the world is unfair, I am sorry it feels like hell, but no matter what anyone says, I still love both of you, will always love both of you, and despite the fact that we have to hide it, my love will never lessen" I said while taking beam in my arms and kissing his face from his forehead to his chin.
I was rewarded with a beaming smile from my beamie. All his complain vanished and there was only happiness in his eyes.
Pha's POV
Beam's beaming smile was like salve to my burning, aching heart. Hearing kit say that killed all those doubts that had started taking root in my head.
I was beginning to think that maybe kit is unable to cope with reality, every time he rejected out touch it felt like he is abandoning us, that maybe our love isn't strong enough for him to stick to this relationship.
but now hearing this, I felt relieved and all those doubts and fear came pouring out from my eyes as tears, hence I stood looking at the loves of my life with teary eyes with love shining from them.
They noticed me soon enough, and ran at me with concern all over their faces.
"Pha, why are you crying, is everything okay? are you hurt" Beam said patting my body trying to see if I was injured while kit took my face in his hands and looked in my eyes and repeated the same question.
It took me a little while to reassure them that I was uninjured and explain the reason for my tears, hearing my reason they also got a little teary.
They then sandwiched me between them
"Kit rak pha na" (I love you)
"beam rak pha na " (I love You)
they said together and kept holding me.
That night that is how we slept, me in between the loves of my life and the world feeling alright again.
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Hope everyone is doing okay and this pandemic hasn't taken someone you love away from you.
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