𝐵𝑂𝐷𝑌 𝐺𝑈𝐴𝑅𝐷❀❀❀𝑆.𝐾𝐼𝑌𝑂𝑂𝑀𝐼

𝔻𝕚𝕕 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥?

"y/n I made breakfast" you heard Sasha call out behind the room door. You didn't say anything just looked at the window as the light peered behind the curtains you heard her open the door your body framed to the bed "just try to eat ok" she stated the sound of glass hitting the dresser as she closed the door back

You took a slow breath blink your eyes the remnants of tears gliding down your face drying up, you laid there your finger tips gliding across the cold sliver ring that rested on your neck. You slowly sat up looking at the plate on the dresser as the steam from the food rose you sighed slowly getting out of the bed

Your feet dragging across the carpet your body weak from not moving for so long you grabbed the plate looking down at it sniffing the eggs

~I can't eat it hurts to do anything

You walked over the the bed sitting down looking at the plate of food then at yourself in the mirror your complexion gray with now life no color your eyes restless and emotionless. You looked at the ring that rested on your neck you had gotten a chain to placed it on

You grabbed it rubbing your finger across the inside feeling the letters of the nickname he called you on your finger tips. You didn't do well with death your mom was one of the worst times of your life you hated feeling like this, feeling like you could do nothing you just had to sit here and take the pain while everyone told you it would get better

You sighed taking a deep breath picking up a piece of bacon biting into it you chewed eating the rest of the food. You placed the plate back on the dresser walking to the closet looking at the few clothes you had inside it you grabbed it stuffing into the duffle bag you had in the room with you

"y/n where are you going?" You heard Sasha speak out you didn't turn your head just kept packing "with my dad" you shortly anwsered "but he said t-..." you turned around

"Someone killed my boyfriend and I'm not sitting around in pain because of it I'm taking over and I'm killing everyone of the Miya's" you spoke threw your teeth looking at her she could see you wanted to cry that you wanted to sit in this room and rote

"Ok I'll drive you" she spoke out rubbing your back as you sat on the floor "y/n it's ok to let it out" you held his suit jacket in your hand rubbing your thumb across his tie wrapping around your neck she hugged you as your body hitched under her "your strong but you'll be stronger if you give yourself time" Sasha spoke out resting her head onto yours you turned hugging her

You cried harder smelling the scent of his cologne that resided on his tie a flash of his smiling face popping into your head, you squeezed your eyes closed "why" you spoke out crying harder. Your throat dry and your voice screeching with every breath as you snuggled into his jacket

"I want to be by myself...I'll tell you when I'm ready to leave" you said calmly to Sasha she hummed kissing your forehead walking out the room closing the door. You slowly stood up putting on his jacket sitting on the bed bawling yourself up wrapping your hand around your ring kissing it

Your felt like you had lost yourself he was your protecter and you couldn't return it too him. You wished you were in the car with him, you wished you had told him to go into the building with you

You sniffed you knew your sobbing screams could be heard but you didn't care. You wanted to feel him again imagining his warmth, his face, his smell, his voice. The way he laughed and his sarcastic comments. You looked at your hand as it held the ring

You slowly got up your bones feeling brittle and your head thumping in your skull as you stood up taking one more look in the mirror seeing your reflection picturing Sakusa behind to calm mind as you slowly smiled giving your ring one more gentle rub

~I'm only living for you no one else

Author's Notes*
𝙸 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚎𝚗𝚓𝚘𝚢𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛