Scaffolds To The Unreachable

Dear Love❤️

Dear Love,
I am sorry, I was loved by many but never enough... I am sorry for I wanted you to fill up all my gaps, sorry for wanting to hold up to you when I left my side... I was no sunshine, but a cloudy day, with just a silver lining...

I knew, how beautiful it was to be made special, I was, I really was... I was loved and hated, wanted and disrespected, pulled closer and left alone all at the same time... I did not make my pillows wet, cause I feared getting caught up,for the rhythm of my mellow sobs, weren't much expected in the melody of expectations... I was supposed to be the happiest, cause what not have I got, there laid many out in the streets uncovered, ripped and tattered, atleast I had a bed to sleep... Sorry love for wanting you to cover me up like a blanket when the world laid naked all around...

I often locked myself up in the room, I did not cry, I just let my tears roll down, thinking it was foolish to cry than to hold on, I sat near the window and laughed at nothingness, cause too much made me somber... It was too easy to be rude to me and forget me at a go, when it took me years and never could I end up tearing a single thread of pain, that entangled with every vein of my heart... Sorry love for enmeshing you in the chaotic web...

I was supposed to be the happiest, supposedly the most comfortable life, awaited and was lived by me, sorry for being a stupid one who wanted to hold you the tightest when you were at low, sorry for wanting to hold up all your struggles as mine and sit back laughing at our failures...

Often the dark sky looked beautiful than the moon, the darkness that wasn't black but dark, the darkness my heart beheld... I never wanted to die, cause in death I knew I would miss you the most... Sorry love, for forgetting the fact that dreams were meant to be broken and memories were meant to be lost, which you were the best part of...

-❤️Uditi Chakraborty❤️