killing stalking one shots or smth lol

hurt.

another day of being battered.
yoonbum was barely recognisable. his face was covered in bruises and cuts, his eyes, which once glimmered with some sort of hope and childlike excitement were sleep deprived, the dark rings underneath them giving them the sunken appearance he had adapted.
his frame was smaller, easier to break.
he wanted so badly to stop being hurt...surely this isn't what couples are meant to be like..?
oh, wait. they aren't a couple. sangwoo has said many times that he isn't gay, and that he's repulsed by yoonbum, calling him a pig or any insult whenever possible.
yoonbum always thought of the saying from his childhood. 'they're only hurting you and being mean cause they like you' his teacher would say to mostly the girls in the year, who would he picked on by the boys.
maybe this is what love actually is..? not everything can be a fairytale can it? this must just be the part you never hear about...
so now he's just left to wonder... what's all of this meant to be? if sangwoo hates him so much, why keep him around? why sleep with him? why kiss him? why be so intimate only to push him away seconds later?
'surely i can't be that repulsive..'

<ah i'm bad at this lololololol'