Finding Harry

chapter 8

Please don't be Mark, please don't be Mark... I keep repeating to myself. My head is getting light headed as I hold my breath. The door handle is turning down and my stomach drops when I see who it is. A little girl. Her head is bald and she is so thin that it's almost like a glass doll. She stands there holding a little teddy bear and in a cute frozen nightgown. My fear just melts away and my lips smile and I need to know who this little girl is, "Hello," I say with a sweet tone in my voice.

The little girl looks confused for a minute. She turns around and then looks back to me, her head drops to the floor and she whispers, "hi." Her cheeks have a slight pink tone showing.

I must look crazy. My face is covered in tears and my room is dark except for the light coming in from the hallway. I just sit there smiling at the cute, little stranger. "My name's Hope." She says as she peeks up at me. "That's a very pretty name," my voice suddenly sounds like I'm talking to a baby. All the same she smiles and continues to enter my room. She hops up on the bed to make herself comfortable. "why are you crying, " she peeps up at me with innocent eyes.

I laugh at her curiosity, "it's some complicated boy stuff." She sits up straight and prepares herself for her next sentence, "girls go to college to get more knowledge, boys go to Jupiter to get more stupider," she grins proud of her statement. I can't help but crack a smile at the child, and think of when I was her age.

She tilts her head still looking at me with interest. "My name is Katherine," I say with a smile. She smiles extremely wide and her eyes light up, "that's my dogs name! " she explained to me. She went on to tell me that when she came here she wasn't allowed to see her dog, but her mom Skypes her and let's her see the dog.

She was quite intelligent for her age and I enjoyed talking with her. She made me feel like it was just me and her and there was no one else alive. I glance at the clock and it has already been an hour. Wow that was fast, I wonder if she is allowed to be out of her room. And as if on cue a nurse came into my room.

"Hello," the nurse said to me and turns to Hope, "honey it getting pretty late, it's time to go back to your room." She had the sweetest voice ever. Is it OK to be attracted to that voice? Like I wish she would just talk to me and I could fall asleep to her beautiful voice.

Hope leaps of my bed and waves goodbye and went on her way. The nurse looked at me and gave me a wink thanking me for talking with the girl. Honestly, I wanted to thank her for letting this precious gift come in here.

I totally forgot about Mark and I was able to lay my head on the uncomfortable pillow and drift into a dream.

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I woke up with beads of sweat coming off my forehead. I went to get up, but my pain was almost unbearable. I couldn't help it, but I started crying. I clicked the button the side of my hospital bed and signaled for a nurse to come in.

My head was pounding and I think I started screaming. I'm not sure mostly what hapend next, I faintly remember puking on a doctor, poor thing. Everything seems to be going in slow motion. I hear doctors yelling and the lights seem to be spotlights all on my face. I feel my eyes rolling back in my head and at that moment I just wanted to let go. I didn't want the pain anymore. But my hand was being held and in my terror I made an effort to see who it was.

I hope it's not my mom, she doesn't need to see this. It was Harry. I could tell by that darn hair. Why did it have to be so long? A doctor was trying to push him out of the room, but I kept my grip tight on him. I didn't want to face this alone. I was scared and could feel myself slipping and there was suddenly this bright light. This is it, I'm ready. But it was suddenly moved and there was a doctor pushing it into a different area of my body.