Song for this chapter: lily by alan walker
The house is on haywire,there's screaming and grunting,smoke and flour everywhere and I mean everywhere.
"What the hell happened here?"
"A big order came,it's an emergency,due this afternoon"Beth says panting. My mum ran an in house pie business,well she mostly took small orders from neighbors but sometime big orders from wedding or birthday parties also came.
"We have to get it done by this afternoon" Sophie appeared with flour all over her body and declared the news. "I think I covered it when I said ,due this afternoon"Beth rolled her eyes"Anyway Mum is going crazy so get to work"
When I entered the kitchen mum and arya was looking possessed ,they were doing this and that like the world would will end if they didn't get it done,I pulled on my kitchen apron. "Honey,what are you doing,you must be tired"mom looked up from her mixing bowl." "No,I'm not. I wanna help"
"but..."
"I'm really not"
"Mum you need the help...let her do this"Arya said
"Okay,mix this ingredients here then"
"Where is this order from?"
"It's a wedding party in portland,the bakery bailed on them last minute,and one of their relative was an old customer recommended me"
"wow,mum.That is great"
"Isn't it?I keep telling her to expand,but she won't listen"Arya
"Yeh,mum. Why don't start up your shop? If you had it done back then we'll be loaded now" Beth chirps in
"Mum,weren't you guys saving for the bakery?"Arya and Beth looks shocked "Why didn't you tell us?"
"She didn't tell me, I just heard it by chance" I shrug
"So when are you gonna open it?"
"Nothing is confirm yet,we were just saving for a while for a what if"
"Whatever it is I'm so happy"Arya hugs her and we all join in,I feel the warmth I haven't in a long while.
"Evelybodi fasster!" sophie yelled running from the living from the living room and we all broke into a laugh,It was like old times,Martha and her masies,that's what mum called us we were her pearls,her best ornaments.
My mum is an excellent cook,but her pies are like from heaven,when we were kids whenever any of us got into a fight mum would take all of us to make pies and we would forget who toke the remote from who,who toke another one's dress or whatever that was going on.It was the best time of my life and today felt like a page fall down from the memory lane....I had a dés vu of this moment too.
.........
After finishing up the order and having a whole lotta pie for dinner I was definitely beat now,I didn't even had the energy to have a bath.So,I flopped down on my bed.
This room was my vicinity,while the whole world was falling apart if I came inside of my room I felt I was safe,every part of it I put together by myself...the bookshelf above my studytable dad and I made it by ourselve,although there wasn't a lot of books there,I wasn't much of a reader that was sadie's forte. There's only a few of my favorite books,of course the fault in our stars standing top of it all then there was few souvenirs and stuff like that.
Behind my bed there was few pictures sadie,jason and i and then few family pictures I tuck them together with some twinkle lights but beside my dresser was my most prized possession my universe projector,Christmas before my 15th birthday I begged mum and dad to get me one,I knew it was hell of expensive,and I never asked for expensive stuff but at that I was so done with myself that I felt like if I could just make my world shift into some alternate universe.I didn't get the projector then and to say I was heartbroken wouldn't enough to describe it but next birthday there it was in my bed,the joy that I felt at that moment I still remember,I felt like all my problems were gone,I turn on the projector and look into the vast universe spread upon my ceiling,I was lost...
I am lost in the midst of nowhere,there is only haze,I can't see clear anything,and I am running,running from what I don't know,but I am running from a long time.
Suddenly I came to a halt,There is a barren field spread upon me ,when I reached at the middle I saw hounding dogs being at least a foot taller than me surrounding me...my heart beat so fast and I'm too sacred to move,suddenly out of the circle I saw mum,a breath of relief came out of me and I screamed out her name...
"Mum,save me,these dogs are gonna bite of my ear,mum,I'm so scared" It was like she couldn't even hear me,she was busy talking to Arya...
"mum they are coming near,mum,MUM!"
my eyes flew open,I could feel my whole body in sweats,god!I was always scared of dogs,yeah yeah I know nobody's scared of dogs but when I was 6 or 7 our next door neighbor's dog matson went crazy I don't know for what ,I was simply playing with him like everyother day but suddenly he growled and bit me in my ear and since then I have cynophobia...I look at the dream catcher at my window.
"Hey,you are supposed to catch all the bad dreams"
I hardly ever had any nightmares,all of my dreams were full of thriller,jumping from there,climbing up from here,riding a speedboat or being a spy,I guess the dream catcher really did it job right and sometimes I even saw some out of nowhere dreams that stayed with me longer than I would want ,dreams that are like the wind...dreams that felt like it was too much to be a dream...dreams with him...and I still remember the first time.
The first time i saw you in my dream
The dancing of your shadow
The hum of your voice
The movements of your hands
The hint of your touch
The earthy scent of yours
The sun coming down bouncing of your brown hair
The soft glow that hid your face
I cud still feel your smoldering gaze
Even tho i kept pondering about you more than often
But before you were never a part of my dreams
I never saw you in that hazy light
I never saw in that soft mellow
I never saw you in that sultry memory
Blurry around the edges,cozy and nothing special
Yet so much
Even tho you were a part of my thoughts
You were never a part of my life
Slowly you were becoming a part of me
Since the first Time
I saw you in my dream...
What's with the stupid poetry...I mean!why was I thinking about him so much,didn't I forget about him and now it felt like all my thoughts rounded up to him,every memory down the lane came up to his...did I really felt this strongly about him?I knew had fair share of affection for him and after last year it only grew but not that could match up him to consume all of my mind.
Did I wanted to think about him cause I liked him or did I think about him cause it was much easier than thinking about my real problems,uhhh! stupid brain why does it need to think so much,can't you just be null,I'm pretty sure I'll go crazy if that happened too,then what?
Je-sus! I needed a shower...
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ChickLit"Nihon" "what?" "That is what i used to call you" really? I never really heard him call me that or is it that I don't remember...lately its hard for me to do that. "What does it mean?" "It means the sun's origin" I look at him ardently to continue...
