Song for this chapter: Dancing with your ghost by sasha sloan
The rest of the week went pretty much the same...school was school but home felt like home after a long while.
But everything came back to where it was as I sat on my windowsill couch practicing for the math test next day,although I didn't need to,I already knew all the answers but solving maths soothed my mind anyway.Just cause I was good at math it didn't mean I was a good student,I sucked at bio and chem both I couldn't remember which chemical reaction was what and which species name was what...I only was good at math cause of dad,He taught me like that I enjoyed it and also soon I discovered by solving the problems I could ignore the coiled up thoughts in my mind,while doing it my mind didn't race a thousand miles a second. It was just like dancing, everything else muted except that one task in front,and I could get lost and find myself within.
I looked outside the window,this place was most definitely my second favorite place in the world though I didn't see the world much anyway. Our neighborhood was pretty well shadowed with trees and It wasn't anything special,small houses with people who have lived here forever....still when I sat here looking at the sun through my window,greenery leading up to it, it was special to me.
I looked down and there he was with his basketball playing in the front porch,this time I let myself look at him,I was well hidden behind my thick curtains.He wore a gray muscle t,his biceps on full display,each time he tried to make a shot they tightened even more,to make it even worse he wore basketball shorts showing his long toned legs,his dark hair was plastered to his had,the sweat forming on this body almost glistening,shit! I needed to stop thinking about him,I needed to stop thinking period. Please crows come eat my brain cells away.
But... something must be bothering him,cause that is when he played at home tensed and never be able to make a shot,If I didn't see him actually playing a match I would be sure that he was a horrible player. My heart ached,I wanted to run upto him and hug him so tight,I wanted to tell him he didn't need to worry,I wanted to hold his hands and tell him it was all gonna be okay whatever that was bothering him,but I couldn't not anymore.
When he was right there in front of him I wasn't brave enough to do it,I couldn't make the move to stroke his face,I wasn't brave enough to make the brush of fingers into a grip,I wasn't brave enough to let him in and now he is too far away to let me touch.
"Where are we going?"
Pace called me up last night telling me to wake up 4 in the morning,yes I said 4,I mean does he not know me,I practically went to sleep at for everyday. Still now here we were hiking through a somewhat dense forest near the seaside with a torch in our hands cause it was still dark,thank god he didn't make me walk the whole way here and I could get some sleep on the drive.
"You'll see"
"Are you a psycho killer?Are taking me to a stranded place to kill me?"
"You have known me for 5 years Natasha,that doesn't go with me"
"I haven't known you for 5 years"
"well we have lived across the street for 5 years so still doesn't go with me,you really need to upgrade your sarcasm skills"
"My sarcasm skills are fiiine"
"That word is as vacant as your sarcasm skills"
"huh,little do you know I was stating a fact,everyone in the neighborhood thinks you are super scary and mixed up in drugs shit" okay nobody said the latter but it wasn't as dramatic without it.
"wait,seriously?"
"yeah of course"I say nonchalantly,"I'm the only kind person to be friends with you"I said with a smirk.Something in his face shifted"you are" he smiled...well i was only joking,I'm sure he has tons of friends,as far as I know he is a popular guy in his school,star basketball player,handsome who's into photography,couldn't get better for a girl either.
"My legs hurt,I can't walk anymore"I sat down on a tree trunk.
"Weren't you supposed to be a dancer,where is your stamina?"
"I'm tired,I can't do it anymore"I fake pant putting my hand over my chest.
"Oh no,I'm not one of your drama's hero who'll give you a piggyback ride,get up,I know you are dying to know where we are gonna go"
"ughh,you'll rot in hell for torturing me like this"
"I'll make sure to share the cell with you love" I choked on the last word,I know he didn't mean anything but It still didn't fail to left me stunned,to get rid of the stupor I felt inside I stuck out my tongue at him,he did the same and we were back to normal.
Where were we hiking the trees slowly started to fade and the daylight was beginning to come through. The time we reached the solid surface I knew what pace was so eager about.
"wow"I said in awe ,the whole sky was beaming with a red aesthetic bloom,in the deep end of the sea the sun was peaking blowing sultry strokes to the water.
"I know" we just stood their in complete daze,too lost in the beauty to say something,how could the world be so beautiful and how much beauty does it keep concealed.
"wow! how did you find this place?"I said sitting down on the ground,the sun was fully up now,owing the sky with its ferocity.
"Dad and I used to do a lot of hiking when I was younger,we accidentally found this place once, After everything happened,I came here alone often whenever I felt it was too much"I felt so sorry for him,why was life so cruel sometimes,I wanted to squeeze his hands but I was too scared and I knew he hated sympathy.
"It's beautiful."
"Yeah It is."
we just sat there in comfortable silence just letting the beauty of the world be enough to sustain the ugly inside.But I was getting too much aware of the close proximity we had,its like the land collapsed in between and we were now sitting skin to skin.
suddenly pace spoke up"One day I wanna shine bright on the world just like that,everybody remembering me and to never fade away"
"One day I just wanna hold the warmth of the sun in my heart,to never fade away"he looked at me confusedly but as if he understood too.
I saw him closing the distance between us,the sun was blazing through the right side of his face,his dark brown hair shined,his chiseled jaw looked like a sharp blade,his reddish lips now looked like ripe apple.
"Naaaaaat"
I heard beth screaming,she peaked through my door,"I have been calling for you so long,what is wrong with you,do you not hear or pretend not to"I gritted my teeth to not say the words that crept up my mouth "I'm sorry,I didn't heard"
"There's a call for you,go downstairs"
"in the landline?"
"yeah,someone from the nursing home you volunteered last year."
I know just who it was.
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ChickLit"Nihon" "what?" "That is what i used to call you" really? I never really heard him call me that or is it that I don't remember...lately its hard for me to do that. "What does it mean?" "It means the sun's origin" I look at him ardently to continue...
