The Mafia King Kidnapped Me What Changed Everything

Part 17

2 days later

Pov. Liva

I woke up remembering the past days. I've been in this room for the past 2 days. I haven't been eating or showering. In the beginning I was crying but now I'm just numb. I can't even sleep every time I close my eyes I see him and the night all happening again. It's like my brain just shut down like it din't want to feel like this anymore. And now it's just done, I don't feel anything anymore. 

But it's like it's going in waves. One moment I'm crying my eyes out and the other one I'm just numb. I don't like any of them they both sucked. With one I am just staring into nothingness unable to feel anything and the other one I am feeling to much. And now is one of the moments I didn't feel anything.

It's has been going so bad that the only relieve I felt was when I hurt myself. I don't want to do it but it's my only happiness. The only thing that makes the pain stop for a while, that makes me feel relieved. And I can't stop doing something that is the only thing keeping me steady right now. I know it's wrong but I just can't stop. One moment you don't feel anything but that razor going through your skin, the blood dripping down my arm. I don't think about how disgusting and ugly I am. I didn't think about the night with Jack. I didn't think how Logan wouldn't want me anymore. How my friend and family will hate me knowing what happened. And then when it's done everything comes back and you don't know how to handle it anymore so you do it again and again, until there is no room left. 

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Owen and some bodyguards kept checking up on me to make sure I was not dead or something. Owen kept calling me downstairs today pleading me to come and eat something. I know he wont leave me alone until I eat something so I pushed myself to go downstairs. I know that I can't keep doing this. I stood up from the bed and went to the closet,  took some clean clothes that included to be a hoodie and some sweatpants and went to the bathroom. I walked into the bathroom and stared into the mirror. I looked horrible. I had big bags under my eyes, I was really skinny because I hadn't eating in so long and I had cuts all over my arms. A tear escaped my eye and looked away from the mirror. I turned on the shower and went inside, the water burned on my cuts. After about an half hour I stepped out of the shower and got dressed. I combed my hair and went downstairs. 

Pov. Owen

Liva finally came downstairs after 2 days. I don't have a clue to what happened to her. I know Jack must have know because he was there when she suddenly didn't want to come down anymore she locked herself up. Liva looked pale, skinny and so tired. My eyes widened at her sight. I rushed over to her and pulled her into a hug. She immediately started crying. *omg, what happened* I asked her trying to calm her down. She didn't answer me, she probably didn't want to talk about it. After calming her down she still didn't say a word to me. I got her to start eating, not much but at least it is something. After she ate I pulled her towards the living room, she couldn't be alone right now. I started a movie while she just sat there practically numb. I needed her to eat some more so I stood up and went to the kitchen to grab some food.

Pov. Liva

Owen left going to the kitchen probably getting some food and drinks. I heard someone walking to the living room, thinking it was Owen I turned round. But no no no no *J-Jack* I spoke while fear was noticeable in my voice. He smirked at me saying *hey Liva, I've missed you...you don't look so good do you*. *What!!* I yelled not believing what he had just said. *I said that you don't really look to good, did you miss me so hard that you just went miserable without me. Do you need me to make you happy again* he said laughing at me. 'are you kidding me' I thought. Everything came back, everything Jack did. From the day that I came here, he has just been f*cking everything up. I didn't feel sad or numb no the only thing I could feel was anger rising in me. *F*ck you Jack, it's you it's always been you who has been f*cking with me from the day I got here. you have been feeding of my fear the entire time. You are crazy........!!!* I kept yelling at him everything that had to be said, that he was the reason that I couldn't look in the mirror without crying,....

Pov. Jack

Liva was yelling at me. After a while of yelling she also started trowing stuff around. I looked at her shocked. She was screaming everything out. She eventually also started crying. Yeeez having a mental breakdown aren't we I thought to myself. She ran upstairs to her own room this time.

Pov. Liva

I ran to Logan's room, this is were it all happened. I looked around knowing everything that has happened. Jack seeing me change, slapping me, kicking me, him pushing me on the bed then tying me down. *aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!* I screamed in emotional pain. I also started destroying everything here. I screamed and cried until I was so broken. I fell to the ground crying not even being able anymore to brake things, to hate everything around me. I just couldn't anymore. I walked to the bathroom needing to stop all this pain. I grabbed a blade and started cutting my arms but I didn't just stop at only one, two or three. No I thought about everything that has happened to me. I started cutting all over my body there wasn't enough room. 'you should end it all' a voice said in my head 'w-what' 'you heard me, just end it stop all the pain, nobody cares about you anyway' the voice continued. The voice is right, I am a nobody, fat, ugly, disgusting, broken,.. I'm nothing nobody cares for me. Not even my parents if they wanted me back they should have found me already. Everyone hates me. I just wanted to slid my wrist when I heard Logan. *Liva, love is that you*. I didn't answer so he tried opening the door knowing something was wrong. The door didn't open so he started freaking out. *love, open the door please* *n-no I-I can't* I said crying harder. *I n-need t-to do t-this* *Do what!* *I have to... I'm sorry* *No Liva what ever you are going to do don't do it please* he said now also crying. *I-I can't i-it h-hurts Logan..it hurts...please make it st-stop* I cried uncontrollably. *No please, open the door we can talk about this* *I-I'm sorry Logan I-I L-Love yo-you*. I said right before I slid my wrist. Logan broke down the door looking at me wide eyed while tears escaped his eyes.

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