I'm Sorry Chanyeol (SuperM)

Chapter 18

A/n
(Please let me have some feed back on this update. How I miss you all)

"Are you ok baek?" Lucas asks as I stop just outside the cafe.

"I can't do this I'm sorry. I have so much on my plate and being here with you isn't fixing it, I'm sorry Lucas but I need to go"

Walking away holding tight onto my bag I reach my car. Throwing my bag in the back I climb in slamming the door closed and taking a deep breath. Chanyeol has crossed the line today and today is the day I sort my life out. I have my solo album out very soon. I have SuperM promotions and a EXO concert all to get ready for.

Clipping on my seat belt I start the car and head to the nearest phone store to buy a new phone. Once I have that already and sorted I ring Suho remembering his number off by heart.

"Hello"

"Hey Suho its me Baek"

"Baek where are you are you ok?"

"I'm ok I guess, you heard what happened after I left the dorm?"

"Yes Sehun told me, baek is lucas with you?"

"No I am alone. I got a new phone so this is my new number. Can you send me everyones number"

"Baek you have all the numbers in the cloud on your email"

"Oh right yeah sorry Suho I forgot"

"That's ok, I'm worried about you baek"

"I'm not gonna lie I am hanging on by a thread"

I start to ball my eyes out sobbing down the phone making poor suho panic.

"Baek..... Baek.... Tell me where you are?"

"In the carpark in front of the phone store"
I sniff and try wipe my tears.

"Look Baek, meet me at the old secret park, do you remember it?"

"Yeah I remember"

"OK you head there now and mamma bear will be there soon"

Giggling to myself as the name we gave Suho I start the car and hang up the phone heading to the secret park.

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Parking the car I climb out and start to walk to the little park where me and Suho use to go to talk without anyone else around. It was off the beaten track away from the roads or paths people out walking would miss it.

Finally making it through the overgrown bushes I reach my destination and take a seat on the grass looking out at some beautiful colourful tress blowing in the wind.

"Hey, oh come here" Suho arrives kneeling down hugging me into his chest as I burst out crying.

"Let it all out sweetheart" he whispers rocking me back and forward untill I finally calm down.

"Hey I brought you food" he moves and sits beside me opening a little bag and passing me some food. "Thank you, I didn't realise how hungry I was till now" I pop open the lid off the food and start eating to the smiles of Suho my momma bear.

"How you feeling now?" he asks making me huff out a little.

"I'm tired and exhausted mentally Suho. I'm trying to do the right things but it isn't good enough. I have so much to do and I don't know where to start". I put the empty food container down and wipe my mouth in a napkin.

"I know you are, I can see it in you. So talk to me and get everything off your chest" he opens a can of pop and passes it to me.

"Well me and Chanyeol made love lastnight. I thought it was makeup sex but turned out it was break up sex" I watch as he just stares at me "Go on" he says moving closer to me sitting beside me with our shoulders touching. This is his way of letting us know he cares without hugging us because if he does hug us we will cry out and not get our feelings out like we should.