it hurts {tsukiyama angst}

{tsukishima}

{I love you...}

It was a beautiful morning. A clear blue sky and some birds chirping in a happy tone.

On the sidewalk there were 2 young boys. 2 best friends. The blonde boy had a secret for the green haired boy, 'I love him'. He had this secret for a few years now. And he never told anyone.

As they walked to school the smaller boy started talking.

"tsukki?" the smaller said.
"what is it tadashi?" the long one answered.

The green haired boy took a deep breath and asked :"do you like someone?"

"eh-no why?" tsukishima said.
"oh just wanted to make sure" the smaller one said.

Kei felt bad about lying to his friend but he didn't tell the truth because he knows that he'll ask about it. And that, that is something he doesn't want.

"tsukki?"tadashi said "what?" Kei answered "are you sure you don't like anyon?-"tsukishima cut him off with "urusai Yamaguchi." and he answered "ah gomen tsukki!".

When they arrived at school a blonde girl came up to them. Yachi hitoka. Tadashi looked at her and her cheeks went a bit pink. At that moment tsukishima knew, she was in love with him.

"h-hey yams and tsukishima!" she yelled. "good morning yachi" tadashi answered with a smile.
"mornin'" kei said.

"ehm can w-we talk yams?" she asked. "oh yea sure!"

"I'll leave you 2 alone" tsukishima said with a small fake smile and then he walked away.

14 minutes later yams and yachi came back holding hands and smiling. When they were playing a practice game yachi gave yams his water and a little kiss on his cheek. "you were doing good out there!" she said. "ah- thank you yachi" yams answered.

Tsukishima's pov

I saw yachi kissing his cheek and God it hurts. It makes me wanna cry, wanna scream, wanna punch stuff but I can't. So I just act like it's fine.

I've liked tadashi for a few years now and I thought I had a chance but I guess I don't. I want to tell him how I feel but knowing him he'd give up his happiness to make someone else happy and I really don't want that.

I hope they're happy together. I snapped out my thoughts when daichi said to continue practice.

3th person pov

After school, the taller boy was standing in front of the school waiting on his best friend. After 5 minutes waiting the smaller one came out with the blonde girl holding hands and talking and smiling.

"tadashi wanna come over?" tsukishima asked.
"ah no sorry I'm going to yachi's"
He answered. "oh okay then,see you tomorrow?" "see you tomorrow tsukki!"

Tsukishima putted his headphones on and walked to his house.when he arrived he went directly to his room and locked his door. He's layed down with his face in the pillow and screamed. Tears coming out of his eyes like it's nothing. Luckily no one was home so no one heard him.

After 10 minutes he got up and cleaned his face. He thought it was pathetic. Crying over someone you love dating someone else? So pathetic.

His eyes were red but he didn't care, he went downstairs and took something to eat. He went back upstairs to do his homework.

A hour passed until he was done with his homework. He putted his maps for the next day in his back and watched so some TV.

Around 8pm he made dinner and ate it. He went to bed.he woke up at 7'15am. He putted his school uniform on and went to school.

On his way to school he saw yams walking alone. Tsukishima went to him and said :"good morning tadashi" "hii tsukki!" he replied.