I was sitting in my dark room, the only source of light was the lamp on my desk. The dull light illuminates my room a honey gold as I sit there wondering what to do.
I stood up from my bed and walked over to my desk. I pulled out one sheet of crisp white paper, one fountain pen, and an envelope.
I stared at the page and wondered what to write. Of course I knew who to, but I didn't know what.
After careful consideration I placed the tip of the pen onto the page and began letting my hand do the talking.
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Dear Kindaichi and Kunimi,
I am writing to you because I don't know how to say this in person. I know you might as well hate me for telling you both this when you're happy together and dating but I need to get this off of my chest. After years and years of hiding and suffocating I finally feel I should tell you.
I love you both. I love you both more than words could explain.
But….you don't love me so I'll leave you alone. I'll stop trying to fix things because I only wanted to do it so I could earn your trust and love. But now I know, I will probably never gain your love.
It's been about a week, twenty hours, and eighteen minutes since I stopped talking to you both. I've been counting the seconds with each breath and watching as time slipped by me. The time I could have been using to make things right.
And maybe you guys can't forget all of the adventures we've taken together since the day that we met each other.
I had taken your hearts into my hands but no matter what I tried they turned into ashes and slipped through my fingers.
It tore me apart back then and it still is now because I can't stand watching these memories disappear.
So now that I'm pulling away please don't let our memories blind you. All of the things that you want are there with you now as you read this. It's something you can't replace, chained to the love that bonds you.
Please when I say this...don't let the past remind you.
Now that you've read through this you probably hate me, and trust me I understand why. You don't have to talk to me ever again but just know that no matter what, you both mean the world to me.
Thank you for reading this, just know that the deal is off and you can continue to hate me. I won't stop you from leaving and I won't beg you to come back.
I'm done chasing after you both. So please, be happy with each other. That's all I want. Again I am sorry for bothering you and taking up your time.
One last time….I love you both.
~Sincerely, Tobio Kageyama
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As I finished writing my tears had already covered the page and smudged some of the words. I was a little frustrated by this because now they would be able to tell that I had been crying. I didn't want them to feel sorry for me simply because I was crying. No. I don't want them to feel sorry at all. All I want is for them to be happy and for them to forget about me.
I folded the paper carefully and placed the pristine paper into the envelope. I liked the seal and then closed the envelope shut, making sure everything was perfect before flipping it over and writing both names on the front.
Kindaichi and Kunimi
(Open together)
I stood up and began changing in the dull light. I threw on my black hoodie, jeans, sunglasses and baseball hat before grabbing the letter and turning on the lamp.
I walked out of the dark, empty house and headed for Kindaichis. It was a rather short walk but it felt like years.
The moonlight reminded me of the night I walked them both home. It really wasn't that long ago but no matter what it hurt like a truck plowing into me. I let out a sigh and walked with my head down trying to think of the events that happened a few nights prior.
As I grew closer and closer to Kindaichi's house I grew more and more anxious. I was just praying that he wasn't home and that Kunimk wasn't with him.
I walked up to the mailbox and noticed the lights on in the kitchen. He was there...I would have to make this a quick stop. I quietly opened the mailbox and stared at the writing on the front for a few moments before slipping the letting in. Just as I closed it I heard the front door open and a familiar voice.
"HEY! WHOS THERE?!" Kindaichi shouted as he started to run towards me. I froze up a bit before I turned around and began sprinting back towards my home. My legs were carrying me as far as they could and as fast as they could.
All of my senses were awake now as my arms and legs pumped like I was running from a killer. My hoodie fell and I lost my hat due to a huge gust of wind. I looked back wondering if I could grab it but there he was.
Kindaichi stood in the street holding my hat in his hands. His eyes shone with confusion and hurt but I didn't stay anything. I just stared at him before turning around and continuing to run the rest of the way home. He didn't follow me after that moment. I just remember hearing a quiet voice behind me and then nothing else.
Once I reached home my legs were weak, my eyes stung with tears, and my lungs were in pain from my heavy breathing. I fell to my knees and just sat on the porch in tears. I don't remember much else from that night. I think I pulled out my phone and texted someone but I don't remember who. It didn't matter though because a few seconds later I fell asleep wondering what I did wrong to deserve any of this.
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1048 words this chapter! I hope this chapter lived up to all if your expectations and I hope that you all enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it! The letter is heavily influenced by the song 'Last of Her Kind' by Alec Benjamin. Now that all of this is out of the way have a lovely day and make sure you get enough sleep and drink water! Take care of yourselves and no matter what I'm proud of everyone! Have a great day!
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