THE QUEENS HEARTBREAK

WHERE IS HE?

PRINCESS MORGANA

Morgana stared blankly at the wall as Gwen gently took of her dress that was stiff with blood, she had nothing left, tears still streamed down her face but she didn't seem to notice. She felt empty devoid of everything that made her Morgana was just gone, she barely even flinched as Gwen cleaned the wounds she had sustained during the collapse of the throne room. Once Gwen had finished she gently put Morgana to bed increasingly more worried about her mistress's continued silence, and she didn't know how to help as Gwen drew up the covers making sure that she was tucked in. Morgana didn't even register the fact that she blew out the candle and left giving her a concerned look before doing so, she curled up underneath the sheets shuddering as the sobs continued to rack her body. She closed her eyes despite knowing that she was never going to sleep and quickly opened them again as Merlins lifeless body flashed beneath her eye lids, she wrapped her arms around herself pursing her lips against the scream that wanted to escape. Morgana glanced at the door wanting to call out to Gwen but knowing that the poor girl probably needed space after everything that had happened, she growled and turned over not realising that she had lit the candle by on her bedside table. 

After an hour of tossing and turning Morgana gave it up as hopeless and swung her legs out of bed shivering against the cold air as she walked over to her closet frowning as she finally noticed the lit candle. Great...how was she going to explain that to Gwen when she came back? Grumbling Morgana grabbed the candle using it as her source of light as she searched for something to wear. She needed to see her son, Liam was the only thing she had left of Merlin and she needed to see his curious green eyes. Morgana could have called for Gwen but she needed time to herself, she slipped into her ridding clothes and crept to the door, slowly without making any noise she eased the door open and peaked around the corner noting the guards Uther had placed out side her chambers. She quickly shut the door before they could notice her and cursed the fact that her room was in one of the castle towers to high for her to climb out the window. Morgana sighed through her nose as she tried to think of an escape plan, after a few minutes of fruitless pacing she rolled her eyes grumbling to her self, it looked like she was going to have to call Gwen after all. Morgana quickly placed the candle back on her bedside table and jumped into bed pretending to just having woken up as she called out for Gwen. 

Gwen rushed into the room but froze as she saw the lit candle a frown on her face and Morgana smiled a little. Gwen turned towards her looking apologetic as she grabbed the candle "I was sure I blew that out my lady I am so sorry" Gwen said and Morgana quickly waved away her apology throwing back the covers so that Gwen could see that she was dressed. Her maid raised an eyebrow at her giving her a questioning look. 

"I need to see Liam but there are guards outside the door can you cause a distraction?" Morgana asked and understanding dawned in her friends eyes, Gwen gave her a sly smile and nodded slipping out the door as quickly as she had entered and Morgan gaped shaking her head in amazement and wondering how she had gotten such a loyal friend. 

Morgana waited silently becoming tense as the minutes crept by, she jumped at the quiet knock on her door but was on her feet seconds later as Gwen opened the door. Cautiously Morgana walked out into the hall tensing as she waited for the yell to signal that she had been spotted, when none came she finally risked a glance around and gave Gwen an incredulous look as she saw both guards knocked unconscious slumped against each other on the floor. Morgana was impressed and Gwen grinned as Morgana shook her head in disbelief "blacksmith daughter remember" Gwen said and Morgana laughed quietly giving her a hug as thanks before pulling up the hood of her cloak and walking through the silent corridors. 

She slowed as she reached Arthur's room wondering if she should wake him and bring him with her but after a moment of deliberation she decided against it and continued on through the castle stopping at the physicians chambers. Morgana looked around making sure that no one could see her before she slipped through the door closing it quietly behind her not wanting to wake Gaius unaware that the physician was still awake. She leant against the door for a moment closing her eyes before she found herself making her way across the room until she reached Merlins bedroom. She sat on his rather small bed turning into the pillow letting Merlins scent wash over her, she picked up his spare neckerchief tying it around her own neck wanting to feel him next to her and she closed her eyes finally drifting of to sleep. 

Morgana startled as someone cleared their throat and her eyes flew open to find Gaius staring at her in sympathy, Morgana could feel herself blushing from embarrassment as she realised that she was still wearing Merlin's neckerchief and had fallen asleep in his bed. She cleared her throat and quickly sat up pulling at the cloth around her neck, Gaius shook his head and sat down next to her pulling her into his arms and she sighed borrowing into his warmth not realising how starved she had been for some sort of human comfort. Gaius was more like a father to her than Uther had ever been. 

Suddenly she remembered that she had come here to see her son and she pulled back finally realising that she couldn't hear the tell tale sign of a young baby, she shot to her feet and rushed into the outer chamber looking around frantically for the crib and the baby that was supposed to be sound asleep within. Morgana spun towards Gaius fear causing her throat to close up as she struggled to find the words that she needed her thoughts racing from one horrible scenario to another. Had Uther found out about Liam? Had he stayed with Gwen last night? No if he had stayed with Gwen surely her maid would have said something when Morgana had expressed the wish to see him? Again she glanced around the room, maybe she had missed him? 

"Where is he Gaius" she said her voice trembling with unshed tears, Gaius sighed giving her a sad look and she gulped shaking her head not wanting to hear it but knowing that she needed to. 

"Your father found out so Sir Gwain and Sir Lancelot smuggled him out of Camelot" Gaius said and she collapsed to the floor a sob building in her throat as she realised that she had lost both Merlin and Liam all within the span of twenty four hours, Gaius rushed over to her and wrapped his arms around her. She clutched the fabric of his clothes in a vice like grip she buried her face in his chest shoulders shaking and a horrible wailing sound coming from her throat.  The old physician murmured as he stroked her hair letting her get it all out as she yelled and pummelled his chest wishing that this was all just a horrible nightmare and she was going to wake up any second to find Merlin alive and well playing with Liam as he warned him to be quiet so that they didn't wake her. 

Morgana had lost everything and it was all because her father couldn't stand the fact that she was happy. Morgana could feel her magic roaring beneath her skin as her shock and grief slowly turned into blinding rage. 

She will make Uther pay for what he has done.