Letters In My Drawer [Completed]

Letter #8

Dear Cal,

There's about an hour before you wake but my patience's really running out. I NEED someone to vent to and get it off my chest so badly! I need you cal. And you are probably the only one I can tell this to. I can't let any of my friends know. It doesn't concern them and trust me, I'm saving them from a major headache. (THAT I DON'T DESERVE TOO URGH). I have no idea what the heck I've done in my previous life to deserve this. Ok, while you are in Neverland, I'm gonna rant here.

That bitch.

You know I don't swear that much but I'm still very pissed, so forgive me.

I saw her flirting with Nessa's boyfriend by the lockers today. Oh boy was Tinsley fully charged with her seduction skills. She was plastering an innocent expression on her face while touching his arm and GOD. Can the neckline of hers get any lower? Urgh it makes me sick and it got me so mad. Feeling worried for Nessa, iIdialed her number immediately, wanting to get Nessa to leave her History class and save Connor. That didn't work though. Without warning, that bitch leaned forward and started kissing Connor. Witnessing that, I panicked. Big time. In that moment, I just knew Nessa couldn't see that. It will crush her. "Shit", i cursed and hung the phone without giving her the chance to answer.

I wanted so badly to tear Tinsley and Connor apart at that moment, and I was mad. Mad at both of them. Well, mad was an understatement. I was beyond pissed for Nessa. She literally gave Connor her heart and THIS is what happens.

Just when I was about to make a move towards them, Connor seemed to realise what he was doing and he pushed Tinsley away. Didn't seem like he was happy with himself for kissing her back, even for that few seconds.

But freaking hell, why did Tinsley even do that? I mean she has a boyfriend for goodness sake. And I don't even hold grudges against her despite her rude comments and smirks she has been giving me whenever I see her at school. Those were tolerable but now this has gone overboard girl. I wouldn't have been a hundred percent sure that she was doing this to get on my nerves, if not for the conversation I've overheard in the washroom. Oh, plus the fact that Connor's 'acceptably cute' for her to mess with. THE HECK. You can't just do that. Not when it can potentially destroy a relationship (not to even mention, a rocky one).

It really wasn't easy for Nessa to open her heart and be receptive to the idea of love again. We've been friends for ten years and I've seen her date guy after guy, each screwing her over. One day, she stopped dating. Just like that. 'There's no such thing as romantic love', she said. 'That kind of love is something we made up just to spice up our pathetic lives. Something that make us hope, and wait. Waiting for this other half that never comes.' For almost two years, she didn't date. And it wasn't like my case. I was waiting for the right one; she wasn't waiting for anyone.

She thinks she didn't deserve to be loved.

It wasn't until Connor came along that Nessa gradually began trusting boys again. I've witnessed their journey and it was far from easy.

And hey, writing to you actually helps me calm myself. I'm not that angry anymore; it's just the headache now. Still there. And its here to stay until I've decided if I should tell Nessa about what I saw today. Sigh, I don't know. I'm not really sure what she will think of it. Connor pushed Tinsley away, so it's a good thing right? Nessa's trust issues hasn't been completely resolved, but its getting there and I don't want to see her back in the state she was, three years ago. Like why do I even have to make things complicated by telling her. Yet, I feel super guilty if I don't, omg.

SAVE ME

Ri

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A/N: Phew! This is like the longest letter I've written so far wow. Sorry, girls need to rant. Haha anyway, my GCE A level results are coming out on 2nd March! Gosh. Pray for me guys!!