A cold breeze hit me
Waking me from my slumber
Smell of the air filled my nostrils
Showering me with dopamine
The white sheets felt smoother than ever
Trees danced to the festive chirps
I smiled stretching my arms
This pleasantness works like a balm
Filling every bit of me with a new hope
Or so I thought
For I saw him
Standing by the window with two cups
His soft swaying brown locks
Chocolatey eyes I lost myself in
And that smile is all I need
I would do anything to enjoy it again
He was waiting out there
To melt in love
Said he would always be there
That silver tongued idiot
Here I am existing
waking up to the petrichor but out of time
Emptiness in the place of him, his smile and his kisses
An endless pit of sorrow
A hole in my heart no doctor could fix
Something I would never be able to fill
I cried to him my everything
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be
Fate is a cruel yet pretty thing
I don't have him but I have the memories of us
Those chats the stars have witnessed
that fantasy of mine on the beach
All the soothing words in the middle of the night
He loved me when I wasn't able to love myself
Taught me how to love myself
Showed a million things worth living for
Little did he know, he was the only word on my paper
The only word I could never imagine losing
But lost anyway
For that, I am suffering
The most beautiful kind of suffering
As sad as it is over
I'm glad that it happened
