escape .

insecurities.

please take it all away.
i get it , im an abomination.
i get it , I'll never have a normal life .
but could you atleast let me live with this shred of normality that i have now ?
or is that to much to ask for ?
the constant hate , disgust , depression.
i can't take it anymore.
im not strong as i thought i was & i get it now .
what can i do to end all of this misery ?
no one ever hardly pays attention unless they're given an incentive.
but that's ok , i don't wanna bother them anyway .
what will it it take for you to leave me alone ?
have i not proven enough to you ?
does my pain amuse you ?
well , you've won .
i give in.
you've finally consumed me .
i have nothing left so just seal the deal ,
end me . please !
im begging you .
no one will hear my cry for help anyway.
as if id call out to anyone , you removed everyone from me .
please , just take me already .
i can't take it anymore .
if you won't then I'll do it myself .
I'll take you with me & we'll suffer an eternity together.
is that what you wanted ?
was that your plan all along ?
to watch me break & end myself ?
well , your plan worked .
i won't stay here long.
maybe I'll belong wherever im going .
maybe I'll find a home & actually feel love .
love . such a strong feeling yet does it actually exist ?
probably, i won't know because i am foreign from any emotion because of you .
but atleast you were there for me when everyone else wasn't.
you've finally succeeded.
I'll succumb to this feeling of a thousand degrees.
i am finally yours .