Devil (au)

Chapter:3 Distance

  ||Audrey's POV|| I wake up and Zayn isn't here like always. I grap my clothes and get ready for school I get a shirt that says unicorn tears on it and some jeans. I put them on then throw my hair in a messy bun i walk out the house and start walking to school. Just as im getting out the house Zayn appears and says whats up hun i look at him and roll my eyes. He says whats your problemn i say nothing but i have to get to school Zayn just looks at me weird i just glare at him. I start walking faster than him so he cant catch up with me wich only gets him pissed. I walk into the school doors and meet up with my bestfriend Laney. Laney asks me whats wrong i say nothing just stressed she hug me and says i hope you feel better i say thanks. {Time skip} I walk home and walk into my room and zayns there i groan and say what do you want he says what the hell is wrong with you lately are you on your monthly time. I look at him and say no i just dont want to be bothered with you. He looks at me and say well if you didnt want to be bothered guess you should have never played that game then. I looked at him with tears in my eyes truth is i loved him so much its unbelievable how much i love him if only he knew. I fall to the floor in tears i just dont know what to do anymore.

||Zayns POV|| What is wrong with her she is acting so different lately she is so distance doesnt even want to talk to me. I'm beginning to feel like she doesn't care anymore. I can sense that she is upset something is bothering her and I want to know what it is but if I asked her she wouldn't tell me now would she. She's really stubborn I tell you it's just the fact that she's so distant that bothers me.

||Audreys POV|| I stand up and look in my mirror i sigh and whisper to myself why am i so ugly why is layla always right. {Flash back} im at my locker and layla walks up to me and pulls my hair she says why are you so ugly i shrug she pulls my hair harder and says answer me i say i dont know. Layla says your so worthless you slut and she pushes me and i fall. {End of flashback} I walk to the medicine cabinet and grab my blades i start cutting 1 cut for being ugly 2 cuts for being worthless 3 for being alive and each time they are getting deeper and 4 for being so stupid. I watch as the cuts bleed out wishing i could die now. I stand up and wash the blood from my arm the water stinging the fresh cuts. I bandage the cuts up and start to cry again im just waiting for my depression to kill me and its like everyone is looking at me saying you're a victime of your own mind and i am i have let all these demons in, and along the way i fell in love with one. Ive let my depression get to me and im slowly giving up im always one step closer to my death if only i could just die but never have to see him i hate him i really do for making me love him oh who am i trying to fool i love him so much. "And as i feel myself fall make a joke of it all" and suddenly i realize that this really is my fault if i was never alive none of this would have happened im sorry im ugly, stupid, and worthless but i never chose to be this way it was never my choice.

A/N on the side is a video and a picture of the cuts and on my polyvore i have colage dedicated to this chapter its called chapter 3 look it up my polyvore is averymagee love you all.xx Avery.XX