Waste it on Me

I

"Oh come on Win , Please just this once" - Ten says while giving him a pout and puppy eyes.

Winwin sighed heavily. Its been four days straight since his bestfriend has been pestering him to go out on a blind date with Johnny's( Ten's boyfriend ) friend.

"Winwinnie just give it a try ! Its been a year since you came back here in Seoul. Don't you think its time to date again? " Ten added carefully.

"I'll think about it " he answered noncommitedly , he just wants Ten to stop , he massaged his temple. All this dating talk is giving him a headache.

Ten nodded , half contented and half worried for his bestfriend.

"Great ! Sehun is a nice guy.You will like him ! We can schedule a group date Y'know ! You're the only single in the group "- Ten said , really excited for Sicheng.

All their friends are in serious relationship now. Kun is dating Irene , one of their school mates way back in college. Doyoung is happily engaged now with Lee Taeyong ,his boss , meanwhile Ten and Johnny remained strong through the years. They met in college.

He just nodded , Ten took this as a sign to leave . He bid goodbye and closed the door to Sicheng's condominium.

Winwin closed his eyes.

Ten is right. He should start dating again.

How long has it been since he dated someone? Three ? Four ? Yeah four years.

Time really flies.

Its been three years since he left Seoul , with a broken heart and regret.

Sicheng studied in SM University for three years and returned back to China to finish his degrees.

He doesn't wanna go back to Seoul. But when the company he is working with as an accountant assigned him for an overseas project  , he cant say no.

That is in South Korea
The place where he left a part of his heart. He sighed one more time.

The only good thing that happened in this whole ordeal is that he got a chance to meet his old friends again.

But he is praying, praying so hard not to cross his path with that person again.

No matter how much he dont want to an image comes to his mind , uncontrollably.

He blinked his eyes .

Despite what happened he still cant accept the idea of meeting him again.

"For goodness' sake Winwin stop thinking about him" he thought.

But remembering his face alone makes his heart heavy.

He tried to distract himself by scrolling in to his phone , but as if his hands has their own mind , he finds himself opening one of his social media account and typed that person's name.

His friends have no intention to update him about what happened to his ex. Which he is thankful with , as much as possible he wants to focus on work. 

He clicked the search button . There are several results, but he finally found what hes looking for when he saw that picture.

The only person he had loved.
The person who almost ruined him.
The reason why he left.

Nakamoto Yuta.

He clicked the profile  and he stared at his pictures. He is a couple years older now , but the boyish smile he has in one of the pictures remind him of the Yuta that used to love him

Winwin fought back the tears threatening to fall.
He cant understand. Its been years. It should not hurt that much anymore.Right?
But here he is , clutching his chest , as if it will prevent his heart from aching so bad.

He scrolled down to Nakamoto Yuta's instagram.

Theres a lot of picture of him and Mark Lee.

It hurts even more.

So they are still together and stronger than ever.

He clicked on one of the newest post. 
Dated like three days ago.

Its a picture of them. Mark is leaning on Yuta's shoulder while the older's arms are wrapped around his waste. And Mark's hand is up on his face , showing his finger with a gorgeous ring.

and the caption is

"He said Yes"

Winwin throw his phone in the bed.

It hurts so bad. He cant think of anything. His tears are falling .

"Someday , when we are old enough I'll marry you Winwinnie"

"I can't imagine a life without you"

"Its always been You. It will never change"

"I will never stop loving you Dong Sicheng "

Winwin sobs harder. He is stupid to believe those lies. 

"Im sorry Winwin but there's nothing you can do to fix us"

"I loved you but he's my life now".

Even though its been years , it still makes Winwin wander .

"Where did I go wrong?"

He closed his eyes tightly but that didnt stop him for crying.