Ace Gulf Garcia pov
I can't believe that I spacing so much. I never feel the present on the other person inside of the house. Not until I heard the fake caught from the man.
"Oh mew... Your here, how long you are here? Come and seat." I offer the new comer, to come and seat. I offer the couch in front of me.
"Hmm I come about ten minutes ago. What you thinking? That even, I come in here you never noticed my presence. It's him again? Until when you will like this gulf your been suffering for almost a year and a half. Are not tried on crying to the person doesn't deserve you." Mew said on me, I lower my head. I don't want him to see my misery.
"I'm sorry mew, I just can't hold my self of thinking about my past. But mew it is not just him the reason of my tears now. It is also for my family. I told you already about them. They can't accept me as who am I, and for thran, when his memories come most specially the event before I leave the country, it makes me cry." I added.
"Can you please share that to me. I been asking you to share it to me in almost a year, so I can understand how deep that wound he gives on you." mew begging at me to share the part of me.
"okay fine I share it to you." I said, I think it can help me to release the heavy feelings I hide in a long time.
Flash back
When I enter inside of the house, the feeling of being unwanted is rushing towards me. I'm looks like a person with a desist that can transmit to anyone I near for.
Because of the reaction and comments of my relatives I decided to go back in Manila as soon as possible. I can't stand on how they treat me and my child. The lonely tears is trying to escape from my eyes, but it goes back inside after I successfully hide my real feeling and keep my facades in front of them that I'm strong enough to face them all, but deep inside is a wounded man.
I and my child take our leave from my so called home, after I saw the reactions of the people on my presence after spending my short time to my sister, and her new born Angel. I take my leave and stay at the near by hotel to avoid the judgements they throw on me.
In early in the morning I decided to come back in Manila because I knew that they don't need me here. It is so hurt to feel that your not part of the home where you grow up. I feel that I'm just a stranger, or more than a stranger to them because of my sexuality.
When we arrive, I decided to go first in the mall to buy some of the house necessity, and some of my daughter needs. I plan to surprised my boyfriend I buy also some ingredients for his favorite food to eat.
After I drop on the mall I excitedly ride on my car together with my girl. I smile when my eyes goes on the grocery that I just buy. Hoping thran will enjoy the meal that I planning to cook for our dinner.
But my happy mood crash dwon when we enter our home, when I heard the sound from the masters bedroom the room that I so called our love nest. I heard a voice of a woman, a voices that two people can do in their lovely moment. It was like a knife that cut on my heart, but I still want to know who is who inside of my home while me and thran is not home. I know thran schedules of the day. I still want to think it was a outsider who come inside knowing that both of the owner of the house is not home.
But I'm so disappointed to what I see, a woman is on the top of the man I use to call my boyfriend, my lover, a father of my daughter my home, my safety place. But now is not it looks like in my mind. The pain in my heart it's looks like there is a big hand holding it so tight that makes me not to breath. I goes down carrying my heavy heart.
After I relax my self a bit I drive my car. All I want is to run away,,,, away from home, away from the man I use to be by his side, away to people who hurt me again and again. When I reach in the next city I look for hotel that I can stay for the next days to make a plan on what I do next I had child with me. I call my parents trying my best to ask a home to be live with but as usual they just turning their heads.
End of flash back
"now you might be understand why I'm still in this pain. That is the reason why I'm here and my daughter, that time she is just six months old. When we run away going here, good thing there was mommy Cora who is always willing to accept me and my baby. She help me to work in your company. " I said to mew.
" I think my disappointment to your ex is now in a higher level. How could he do that inside in your own home and in your own bed. I can't believe how trash that man. Gulf he never deserved your tears. If only I can take all of the pain and bad memories even I lost all of my money I will. But I can't buy a thing that can let you stop remembering him. " mew was very sorry on my story.
" it's okay mew I know..... I'm on the way of forgetting and letting it go. " I said.
" gulf.... Can I help you of healing that pain.. By letting me in your life. I promise I never hurt you. " he ask me.
" but you know my past memories mew and I don't want to put you as a escape way of my failures. " I answer.
" I don't care your past, all I care is now and the future. Can you Please. " he pleading on me.
" are you sure with that, I know it's been a while since you ask me this. But I don't want you to be hurt if the old memories come back on me." I'm worried of losing him, I don't want to loss him as my friend, because I want to had a relationship with him.
" I well handle that as long as your in my arms. Promise I will understand and support you. If one day you decided of giving up our relationship I promise I stay always on your side as a friend. " he genuinely said.
TO BE CONTINUE......
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