Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Part 2 "I thought...."

She sat on the shower edge and covered her face. He was only catching the ball, you fool!- she thought. She heard his footsteps and held her breath. He knocked on the door.

- Are you there?

- In a minute!

She got up and refreshed her face, she didn't want him to see her tears. She took a few deep breaths and opened the door. Yaman was sitting on the bed, with his face all tensed and serious.

- Seher, I am so sorry! - he stood up and she backed up instinctively. - God..... please......don't... I....- he put his fingers through his hair, helpless. - I don't want you to be frightened. I will never hurt you!

Seher looked down at the floor. "Too late" - she thought. She slowly sat on the sofa. To hide her shaking hands, she sat on them, trying to take not much space. She feared he would grab her arms again and scream she overreacted. Instead he kneeled in front of her and touched her chin.

He felt his guts cramp when he saw those beautiful eyes full of anxiety. That was the last thing he wanted to witness. He missed her eyes when they shone with laughter and joy.

- Please, don't cry. I'm not worth it. Don't be afraid of me because I would rather die than hurt you ever again. I know what I've done. You have every right to get up now and leave, take everything with you..... Take whatever you want because I don't want anything if you are not here.....

He wiped a tear rolling down her cheek.

- I had your trust and ..... love and I just tore it apart. - she tried to look down but he held her face. - I love you as much as you love me. And I know I'm right. You know it too.

He took a deep breath and continued.

- I was given a file with photos and a recording.... I thought I had everything for granted. I didn't think I should ask about anything. I considered you to be mine. And you betrayed me....

Her face turned white like snow and her eyes were fulfilled with shock. He exhaled resigned and put his head down.

- I never.... - she whispered.

- I thought you were my wife for real but I never told you that.... When you said you would marry me, I felt I could challenge the whole world. I could never imagine anybody being this close but when you came into my life I couldn't imagine anybody else but you right next to me. Thinking you may love someone else drove me insane. I wanted you to love me only. And Yusuf. I dreamed of you saying those words only to me...

-What words?

Looking at the photographs and listening to the recording was the most disgusting experience in her life. She cried all the time and didn't let Yaman touch her.